Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I am so grateful to my friends, I am tearing up this morning. In fact, had several in my am mtg in happy tears. I am walking around with chills because what I feel is so much love and gratitude.
I have spent most of the last 49 days in my own personal hell. The last few were more difficult than I ever imagined could be. I decided to drink. I wrote an email to get out of work on Friday. I planned my weekend all the way through Tuesday. It was going to be the worst binge yet. I even let a friend off the hook from trying to help me. I was GOING TO drink. I was sure of it. I refused to even pray because I had gotten to the point I didn't WANT the obsession to be removed. I didn't know if I'd live through this binge or if I'd ever get sober again. The "I love yous" were flowing because I wanted everyone to know how I felt in case something happened.
I feel flattered and undeserving of this miracle. I feel immense LOVE for the friends who took literally hours (every waking hour) through the past couple days and nights trying so hard to distract me, talk sense into me, and give me hope. I didn't think it was possible to help me this time. I don't even know how I am still sober today.
For the first time in my life, last night, I got on my knees, and I THANKED God for giving me so many amazing friends who care for me. This is the greatest gift I have received in as long as I can remember.
I am grateful to be sober today. I feel incredible. I can't fathom drinking to this sort of LOVE. It DID pass finally.
I trusted. I was honest. I told on myself. I was willing. I let my friends try to help. And I waited. And I can't imagine a better place to be today.
Love to all.
I have spent most of the last 49 days in my own personal hell. The last few were more difficult than I ever imagined could be. I decided to drink. I wrote an email to get out of work on Friday. I planned my weekend all the way through Tuesday. It was going to be the worst binge yet. I even let a friend off the hook from trying to help me. I was GOING TO drink. I was sure of it. I refused to even pray because I had gotten to the point I didn't WANT the obsession to be removed. I didn't know if I'd live through this binge or if I'd ever get sober again. The "I love yous" were flowing because I wanted everyone to know how I felt in case something happened.
I feel flattered and undeserving of this miracle. I feel immense LOVE for the friends who took literally hours (every waking hour) through the past couple days and nights trying so hard to distract me, talk sense into me, and give me hope. I didn't think it was possible to help me this time. I don't even know how I am still sober today.
For the first time in my life, last night, I got on my knees, and I THANKED God for giving me so many amazing friends who care for me. This is the greatest gift I have received in as long as I can remember.
I am grateful to be sober today. I feel incredible. I can't fathom drinking to this sort of LOVE. It DID pass finally.
I trusted. I was honest. I told on myself. I was willing. I let my friends try to help. And I waited. And I can't imagine a better place to be today.
Love to all.
When people defiantly assert that alcoholism is not a disease it is precisely because they cannot fathom what it is like to feel uttery chained to unseen forces inside our selves.
And for those of us who have lived with these obsessions and compulsions we are, sadly, inclined to believe that it must be something other than alcoholism that makes us act the way we do -- something unique that no one could understand.
HTL -- thanks for your post and thank you for reminding me how completely powerless I am.
((((((((((HuGs)))))))
What is truly awesome is~~ this was a portion of my day yesterday and I really was OK and serene all day. I didn't even realize I was so happy until I pulled out my MP3 started jammin' on some Journey and had an overwhelming sense of peace.
This was a museum~~~~ a swat team would have been called before.
This a part of your deal Olive, feel it and feel good about it.
How 'bout this you little...B...FF! I leave you out when you leave me out and see how wonderful we both don't feel! Damnit! lol.
I've told you before and I'll tell you again...Don't leave others out. It helps to help others.
Ok, I'm done bitchin at cha! (o;
Wonderful! Wonderful! WTG!
I'm so blessed to have you in my life! (and you thought it was all about you! kehehe)
I love you! :))