Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I popped the question... Got me a new sponsor.
Say what you want. Something is happening. I prayed on it. Too many coincidences. I am moved. I am only cracking the door. Something else is pulling me through despite my reluctance.
I have wanted to drink every day this week. On and off obsession. I came dangerously close to picking up. I don't want to go back there and yet I still want to drink.
I am terrified to speak of things like miracles and higher powers because I am afraid I will fail anyway. I was afraid to get a sponsor because I thought I'd drink anyway. I am afraid to share because what if I relapse and am just a fraud? I have been afraid to do the steps because what if I STILL want to drink. What if I do my best and don't "get it" anyway.
Is what it is. Afraid or not, all I can do is what feels like the next correct thing.
Say what you want. Something is happening. I prayed on it. Too many coincidences. I am moved. I am only cracking the door. Something else is pulling me through despite my reluctance.
I have wanted to drink every day this week. On and off obsession. I came dangerously close to picking up. I don't want to go back there and yet I still want to drink.
I am terrified to speak of things like miracles and higher powers because I am afraid I will fail anyway. I was afraid to get a sponsor because I thought I'd drink anyway. I am afraid to share because what if I relapse and am just a fraud? I have been afraid to do the steps because what if I STILL want to drink. What if I do my best and don't "get it" anyway.
Is what it is. Afraid or not, all I can do is what feels like the next correct thing.
This is good news-please try and focus on her helpfulness to you. No one is going to be your God-but look for cues that can help lead you. God/the universe/this life has great things planned for you-just listen to what you need to do!
Give this a chance. I think you are doing great.
James - great description of one day at a time :).
CD - awesome (you're getting quoted in a minute)