Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Good morning. I'm fairly new here. I've been reading along since I quit on April 8 and have posted to others a few times but haven't introduced myself.
On the 8th I finally had enough of the hell I was living in. I started drinking sometime in my teens. I considered myself a borderline alcoholic for many years. It was very much a progressive thing for me. I was able to keep everything pretty much under control throughout my 20's and early 30's. When my 3rd daughter was 2 (13 years ago), my husband and I split up. I think that is when the real decline started. I was drinking anywhere from 3 - 12 beers most nights. At one point I started drinking vodka, which I found was easy to mix in with soda and take along with me wherever I went. I realized after a few months of this, that this was a real issue and quit keeping vodka in the house. Things went okay for awhile after that. In the meantime I got remarried. My husband enjoyed drinking Captain and we usually had a bottle or two at the house. After that, it was a pretty rapid decline. There were times I tried to cut back and would be successful for a few days or a few weeks and then go back to the normal continual drinking. I basically drank from the time I got out of bed until I got back in bed that night. I would take a diet Pepsi mixed with Captain with me basically everywhere I went. Work, running kids around, everywhere.
Last year I started having an affair. This went on for months. I knew it was so wrong and tried to stop many times, just to get sucked back into it. I finally reached a point where I couldn't stand the constant struggle in my head and told my husband. I think I felt that by telling him I was taking my control away and giving it to someone else. He moved out within a week. The next two months were pure torture. I was continually in tears. I knew I wanted to stop seeing this other guy, but couldn't. I knew I wanted to stop drinking, but couldn't.
The morning of the 8th, I came to work drunk. I cried the whole way there and couldn't turn it off. I called my husband and asked if he could meet me at the house because I really needed his help. He was kind enough to come. I told him everything. He had no idea how much I had been drinking (about a 5th a day). I always tried to keep it hidden by buying more Captain on my lunch hour to make it look like it didn't go so fast. He poured out all the liquor and removed the beer and wine. We called around to some outpatient treatment programs, who wouldn't touch me until I detoxed. Ultimately I chose to detox at home.
I have been sober since that morning. For the most part, I feel like I've had a pretty easy time of it. I think the fact that I've felt so much better than I have in years is the main reason for that. Also reading here has been a great help.
The last couple days though, I've been kind of down. I can't really put my finger on why. My husband and I have decided to reconcile. We've spent the last two weekends together and this week he has been home all week. He is officially going to move back in next weekend and we are going to pursue marriage counseling. I am very grateful that he is willing to give me a second chance, as I do love him very much.
To be honest, just typing this all out to you all, I feel a bit better.
Thanks for reading :)
On the 8th I finally had enough of the hell I was living in. I started drinking sometime in my teens. I considered myself a borderline alcoholic for many years. It was very much a progressive thing for me. I was able to keep everything pretty much under control throughout my 20's and early 30's. When my 3rd daughter was 2 (13 years ago), my husband and I split up. I think that is when the real decline started. I was drinking anywhere from 3 - 12 beers most nights. At one point I started drinking vodka, which I found was easy to mix in with soda and take along with me wherever I went. I realized after a few months of this, that this was a real issue and quit keeping vodka in the house. Things went okay for awhile after that. In the meantime I got remarried. My husband enjoyed drinking Captain and we usually had a bottle or two at the house. After that, it was a pretty rapid decline. There were times I tried to cut back and would be successful for a few days or a few weeks and then go back to the normal continual drinking. I basically drank from the time I got out of bed until I got back in bed that night. I would take a diet Pepsi mixed with Captain with me basically everywhere I went. Work, running kids around, everywhere.
Last year I started having an affair. This went on for months. I knew it was so wrong and tried to stop many times, just to get sucked back into it. I finally reached a point where I couldn't stand the constant struggle in my head and told my husband. I think I felt that by telling him I was taking my control away and giving it to someone else. He moved out within a week. The next two months were pure torture. I was continually in tears. I knew I wanted to stop seeing this other guy, but couldn't. I knew I wanted to stop drinking, but couldn't.
The morning of the 8th, I came to work drunk. I cried the whole way there and couldn't turn it off. I called my husband and asked if he could meet me at the house because I really needed his help. He was kind enough to come. I told him everything. He had no idea how much I had been drinking (about a 5th a day). I always tried to keep it hidden by buying more Captain on my lunch hour to make it look like it didn't go so fast. He poured out all the liquor and removed the beer and wine. We called around to some outpatient treatment programs, who wouldn't touch me until I detoxed. Ultimately I chose to detox at home.
I have been sober since that morning. For the most part, I feel like I've had a pretty easy time of it. I think the fact that I've felt so much better than I have in years is the main reason for that. Also reading here has been a great help.
The last couple days though, I've been kind of down. I can't really put my finger on why. My husband and I have decided to reconcile. We've spent the last two weekends together and this week he has been home all week. He is officially going to move back in next weekend and we are going to pursue marriage counseling. I am very grateful that he is willing to give me a second chance, as I do love him very much.
To be honest, just typing this all out to you all, I feel a bit better.
Thanks for reading :)
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Dick Van Dyke’s path to sobriety was a turning point in his life and career. Here’s what happened:How He Got SoberStruggles and Realization: Van Dyke began drinking as a teenager, largely to cope with shyness and social anxiety. Alcohol made him feel more comfortable in social settings, but over time, his drinking spiraled out of control. By his mid-40s, he recognized that he had an addictive...
You are very lucky to have a Husband who is willing to stay at your side. My Wife should have left me, she decided to stick with me and give me a chance. I would not have been able to start down this journey without her.
Good luck and keep us updated!
One of the keys to remaining sober is being honest with yourself and others...seems your doing well now in all areas.
So keep up the good work. So glad you have someone supportive on your side. Counseling is a great idea because affairs are very difficult to get over and depression always led me back to drinking.
As said...keep up the good work and the honesty.,..and keep typing.
I just hope you find a way to deal with the why , I was able to quit many times but would always go back. This time I found a happier way and learned about the why and how to cope without booze.
Keep going!
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Keep up the good work ;)