Who gives a shit what others think. It's about taking care of YOU. Ones recovery SHOULD be selfish. It's only In recovery that we can become selfless.

Sometimes when we screw up is when we finally start taking this disease seriously. We have all been there Ashley. Keep moving forward. Luvs ya:)

Okay, please help guys....what would you do?
I think I need to call my boss at work.....
what do I say? Do I admitt to have a problem with drinking, say the word alcoholic?
Or should I just apologize and see if I still have a job?
what should I say, I am so nervous.....

go in... look him in the eye, be honest and tell him you will do your best NOT to let it happen again. Then the hard part... stand to your word. Follow up mwith a meeting or call someone from your phone list and get some coffee and relax. And remember this... No door closes that God won't open a new (and better) one!!!

Ashley-
There have been too many times I have gone to work worried if I would have my job. It didn't really make too much sense because I rarely missed work and I was never late. But the times I did....I felt so guilty...so bloody guilty...
I say don't call and walk into work totally sober and just see what happens.
My experience has been that nothing happened.
Nothing at all....

There is no "right way" you can approach this in many ways. You can go to in or out patient treatment. You could just continue to go about your life and work, but instead of drinking at night or on weekends you could just start going to AA meetings in the morning at lunch after work or in the evening what ever works with your work schedule. Just try and go when it is the time you would normally consider drinking.
More than likely your boss already knows you have a problem. If you go the treatment way you will probably need to talk to him/her. The meeting way maybe not but if you need 15 minutes extra for lunch for a meeting maybe so.
When you are at home alone and feeling restless get on here. Chat or message back and forth with individuals. Try not to be offering advice as much as reading what others especially those with sobriety have to say.
Go to this website and listen to different speakers talk about thier journeythrough alcoholism and recovery.

http://www.aaprimarypurpose.org/

Main thing don't pick up a drink no matter what. When your ass is falling off come and chat with us or call the people from your meetings or go to a meeting. This is the glue that will hold it on.

P.S It would be easier to help if we knew a little more about you like your real age. Do you live small town or city. Are you living with other active drunks etc.
You have made an honest statement and asked for help. that's a great beginning. Now just continue to be honest, keep an open mind and be willing to go to any length to not drink.
Good Luck God Bless

No, I think this might be different....I called in this morning, and talked to the hostess, and he told me he would tell the manager...
well the manager called and left me a message asking me to please come in...I never called her back....now, I know I need to call her and I am so stressed out...I was late last weekend, both days...
I just need to call and I am freaking out...I can not go in and let her see that I am fine....i called in sick...
I know it will be okay, I just need to talk to her, and the phone seems so heavy.....she will be leaving at 4 today too...I need to do this and dont know what to say????
I guess just that I am sorry and it wont happen again??

I'm with Whoo. Go on in and don't worry about it. If you need to address your drinking with work because you enter a program and may need to miss work, then wait until you have a plan before you tell them. Take your fear to God and stay in prayer for His help. You have my prayers too sister girl!

Hey reed, sorry I changed all that because I got parinod that someone could get on here and know who I was...silly I know....
I am 30 years old, I live in a city, louisville, kinda smaller scale though...
I am a server, I think I need to change jobs all together but I have been doing this for about 10 years....so no office experience makes it a little harder to switch...

what else...I have been drinking since I was 13 or 14....the past 3-4 years it has interfered with my life maybe longer....
the past year i have been trying to stop and been unsuccessful....the longer I went was 30 days....

Thats me....

Ashley,
Call your manager and stop putting it off. Just have a nice, frank discussion. If you want to keep the job, then let the manager know that you want to keep it. It's sometimes hard for them to find new help anyway.

I'm going to repeat myself from the last time I responded to one of your posts: I think that you are bored and lonely right now, and you use alcohol as a way to connect with people. When you are sober, you seem to hide in your apartment - that makes sobriety a real drag, because you're not able to be with people.

You need to go out with some groups of sober people and hang out. That might mean AA (for social reasons if nothing else). Go to a church - they have singles groups, join a gym with an aerobics class -you'll meet others this way. You are young and single and you need something fun to do, that does not involve drinking. Sorry to repeat that.

Again- don't put off this phone call- things may not be as bad as you think they are.

Ashley, You are young that is great! Get off the merry goround now before you start ruining your relationships, your jobs, get DUIs.
Therse is life and fun after alcohol and your relationships and friendships will become so much better as you learn and grow in sobriety.
As for your occupation you're right that occupation seems to be a magnet for people with drinking problems but don't do anything rash.
The fact that you live in a city means there are meetings morning noon after work and evenings. Get a schedule and start going to lots of different ones until you find what you need and hear what you need to hear.

well, she was already gone for the day....
I guess I'll just have to wait and see

Forget about other people. Pick yourself up! Go to a meeting or seek therapy. Talk to your boss, above all do not drink!

Sounds like drinking is causing a lot of pain.It did for me as well.The more pain it caused me,the more I drank to relieve it.It won't get any better.Your last drunk is as good as it's going to get.My employer knew about my problem,though I thought I was keeping it under control and hidden.There is a solution.

Ashley-I personally think Jim has it right on-go in and talk and give him your word and stick to it. Can you?

Ashely, I was a server way back when and it is really not a great job to be in if you are trying to get sober. In my experience-people work hard and party harder all together after the shift is done. Sure you can pass on this-but you are young, single and on the fence so why do this to yourself. I know damn well from your posts you are quite smart, and unless you plan on getting drunk 24/7 you can land another job to sustain yourself.

Oh, all this aside, don't worry about anyone but you getting SOBER! Everything else will fall into place when this happens-and the right people will enter, stay, or leave your life.