Hi Hati. I'm fairly certain no one is going to have a go at you. You are one of us. You are necessary for our recovery and we are necessary for your recovery. Considering your refusal to go to AA, you probably won't gain much from my experience b/c AA is my experience in recovery and the only way I know. I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm sure there are others in this room that can help you with AA alternatives. Best of luck to you and stay connected to this group.

I'm in the same boat. Keep saying im stopping and I do it again. I was sick all day yesterday. I too feel this is it for me. I can't continue on this path either. It's destroying us. I know how you are feeling. I find some comfort in knowing I'm not alone. If you didn't like AA maybe try counseling. I'm going to if I can. I may try AA. I haven't done it before. Just keep trying things. Don't give up and don't give in. Feel free to message me anytime.

7 Popular Alternatives to AA

www.soberrecovery.com/addiction/5-popular-alternatives-to-alcoholics-anonymous-2/

This is just a suggestion. Have your doctor refer you to an addiction counselor. Your counselor might put you in a small group of 6 or 7 other addicts. It's not AA but it's designed to help you identify your triggers and teach you how to deal with them.

God Bless

Support is imperative so if you don't want to do AA then look at the alternatives PJ has listed - support may be the one thing you've been missing in the past??

Thankyou everyone, I will look into the alternative groups.

I just use DS. Face to face meetings are not my thing. I hate them.

It gets easier after 14 days. At that time the physical dependence is over. Then you have just the obsession to drink. That is where will power comes to play. Don't take the first drink.

Hati, it’s a terrible feeling to hit bottom rock, but the good news is that the only way we can turn is upward yeah? Only God can help you with those around you who are carrying the other burdens along side of you that He has so designed. There are other group and you’re not alone. People care and love you, above all, God cares and loves you.

You look backward and you will be destroyed. You look forward you will be distressed. You look around and you will be discouraged. But you look upward, you’re determined. Don’t let prayer be your last chance but your first choice!

Praying for you!

I was unable to do it alone. It was impossible to learn what I didnt know. I only knew that alcohol was how I solved all my problems. The problem was it is a drug and I became hooked. I was only able to deal with the good or the bad by taking a drink. I was able to quit for 2 years once and I was sad and angry the whole time. I was not working on any of the reasons WHY I drank, I had just stopped the drinking. It was worse than the drinking, so I went back on the nipple.

Alcohol is a drug and it is addictive. The only way that I have been able to be happy without booze is to work on me and how I view the things that happen to me. I just wasnt able to do it alone, I needed the help and guidance from others. But the reason I stayed in the bottle for so long was I was never able to ask for help, I was GD independent and able to do it myself... well that thinking got me drunk

Alcohol was not the problem it was the solution. When I removed the booze all I had was problems. I was like a raw cut and just unable to heal until I found a hospital that had the right antiseptic.
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