Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Hi, my daddy and mom owned beer joints when i was just a baby and they gave me beer in my bottles and let me dance on the pool tables. Well they divorced when i was still a baby because she was a junkie. So i was 10 and wanted to go visit her now she had a Biker joint. My first drink was Jack & Coke then she took me into the bathroom and she had a needle and a spoon hell i had no clue rember im 10 so i asked her what was it for and she said it would make me feel better so ofcoures i trusted her so she she shot me up and the next thing i know im in the storage room with Bikers around me and one was pulling his penis out of my mouth when i came to. I yelled for my mom and she handed me $100.00 dollars and told me this is the way to make money and told me not to tell my dad. Well i couldnt tell my dad because i know he would have had killed her he had just got out of the pen but i dont know for what i just rember jumping up and down on the bed screaming please dont take my daddy. My dad was good to me i was born on his 44th birthday and my mom was 21. I never told my dad and he loved my mom so much he promised her if she got off dope he would remarry her well after 23 years she came back clean and he did marry her again. The point is my own flesh and blood got me started down on a downwathat had the bord sprial. So i drank for 17 years a line here and there but i was a drunk but i meet a guy that had the body like the Rocks he went to my home group from rehab. Well one day i drove by his rehab and said are you coming with me are not. I wasnt serious but serious enough he jumped the wall so now ive got take him home with me now he tells me he a crack addict oh i was like i hope you get better well what happened was he would make me smoke crack by gun or knife to my face to do Snuff Videos and Beastitly Shows. So im no longer a drunk im a crack addict. That lasted 5 years weve been married for 12 but i havent heard from in 7 years and im on Disabilty so i cant afford a divorce. Ok sorry this is so long but im Bipolar 1 Mixed Episodes with 3 other mental disoders. My problem is 4th of July i will have 2 years sober and in September i'll have 2 years clean but i want a reward and i want my reward to be a bottle of Malibu. Please anybody help me?
Billy
Be proud that you are standing tall and each day sober is a huge accomplishment.
Take good care.
I would suggest putting off that bottle for another month. See if these feelings pass. Sobriety anniversaries are just irrationally difficult for some reason it seems. Don't cave on that notion. Just hang in there and wait it out. I believe you will get through this - it is nothing compared to the suffering you have already experienced.
Hugs
You have resilience to come through all this and that want for life to be different.
You know that bottle of malibu will take you right back to the place you don't want to go and so stay in the day and just keeping put the action in of staying sober.
For me, my reward is the life I have today which is only possible in sobriety. I will have four years this week and in the afternoon I will be at the funeral of one of my best friends. Now I can even do the 'pour me' and be selfish or I can adopt the attitude of 'what a lovely way to share my sobriety birthday' and I have chosen the later.
We never know what our journey is yet at least sober, I am in with a chance of a happy contented peaceful one :)
Peace to you.
Be careful as we, as adults, take over the job of abusing ourselves that are parents started and we can keep doing it till it kills us. This is from someone that abused alcohol and drugs for over forty years!!!!
Go to a meeting, it does not leave you hungover or addicted. I now have 11 years clean and sober and actually enjoy life. Eric
Can you tell us what you did to stay off the drinks/drugs?
I can tell you what worked for me and that was going to the Rational Recovery web site and doing the free online crash course. It doesn't take long at all and it will teach you how to stay abstinent for ever. No need for meetings if you know what to do when you hear that little voice trying to get you to take that first drink/drug. Then get the book (Rational Recovery: The New Cure for Substance Addiction". You can buy it cheap second hand if you need to.