I was in love with this alcoholic that I had been dating almost two years. I've always been there for him through everything to help him out. I stood by his side when he was recently in a 28 day inpatient program. He called me every day and our relationship seemed to really grow while he was in rehab. Although we weren't seeing each other, our phone conversations were just so amazing.

However, we he got back from rehab I was so nervous about my role and place in his life. I've tried to talk to him about it but he wanted nothing to do with having a conversation with me. After two weeks of being home, he was slowly disappearing on me. He wouldn't call me for days at a time and we didn't see each other as much. I think I could understand more if he was busy going to AA meetings, his counselor, church, etc... But two weeks out of rehab, he was making it out to bars with friends and had corona's in his fridge. He told me he wasn't drinking again... I'm not sure if I believe him.

Anyways, I did end this past Wednesday. He doesn't realize how this has affected me. While he was in rehab, I did everything for him. I took care of his condo, payed bills, ran errands, did his laundry... and maybe I'm being selfish, but I guess I thought he would have wanted to spend time with me or show his appreciation in some way... dinner, flowers, movie... etc. But, I got nothing. I even had a birthday and all I got was a post-it note in my wallet. This past Friday, he took another girl to the Blackhawks game and posted every picture of the two of them all over Facebook. If he didn't have feelings for me anymore, I could accept it if he could have just had a conversation with me letting me know that he is not that into me... instead of hurting me this way. When I told him how this has affected me and how I feel so broken, he rolled his eyes.

I wasn't disregarding the fact that he is dealing with life without alcohol. But, he still managed to go snowboarding with his buddies, out to dinner with friends, to superbowl parties... and I felt like I was just this worthless piece of shit. Anyways, after Friday and I found out he took another girl out... I sent him a message that literally ripped him a new one. I'm not going to deny it wasn't incredibly mean. And I did throw in his face everything and more that I have done for him and how he could do this to me. I just feel so lost and I just don't know how to get over this...