Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I like many otherd here, relapsed! And like every other alcoholic thought I could control it....thought that after a year of being sober, that maybe I was different, that maybe I could just "take a break from recovery".
So, that was what I did...and where did it land me? I ended up in jail...I messed up my knee, and consider myself VERY lucky!
I am so lucky that I was not hurt a lot more than what I was! I was arrested and do not even remember it. I was lucky I was not driving, I was so lucky I did not seriously hurt myself or someone else.
maybe it is not luck but someone watching out for, letting me know that I had to quit, that I could not handle this disease.
I am going back to my home group tomorrow and I feel a little stupid but I know that they will all love me just the same and be glad that I am back again!
And another thing that sucks is really feeling so fresh in the way that I feel...I cant believe it but I crave drinking, even after all that. I feel new and wobble again...I may have gain knowledge, but that is nothing that will keep me sober....
I am grateful though that I know the solution and I do have friends I know will be there for me..
Thank you all for being there for me when I posted last! I am grateful I can come here and vent and get support as well!
So, that was what I did...and where did it land me? I ended up in jail...I messed up my knee, and consider myself VERY lucky!
I am so lucky that I was not hurt a lot more than what I was! I was arrested and do not even remember it. I was lucky I was not driving, I was so lucky I did not seriously hurt myself or someone else.
maybe it is not luck but someone watching out for, letting me know that I had to quit, that I could not handle this disease.
I am going back to my home group tomorrow and I feel a little stupid but I know that they will all love me just the same and be glad that I am back again!
And another thing that sucks is really feeling so fresh in the way that I feel...I cant believe it but I crave drinking, even after all that. I feel new and wobble again...I may have gain knowledge, but that is nothing that will keep me sober....
I am grateful though that I know the solution and I do have friends I know will be there for me..
Thank you all for being there for me when I posted last! I am grateful I can come here and vent and get support as well!
Every so often I feel like having a drink and stories like yours really help me to make a decision not to take that drink.
Thank you.
Like you, she thought she could control it...again. She thought she could have two drinks and that was it. She couldn't and ended up having a horrendous week before Christmas (as did her other half).
She thinks she is on step 4. Me...I don't think she has step 1. I could see the drink coming; the stopping meetings; moving away from the little program she had; not doing the work (on step 4 with her sponsor for a long time) and the planning that led to that drink.
Can you see how yours came along?
I learn every day and it is in the learning that I progress forward.
Thank you for your share...a reminder that alcohol IS cunning, baffling and powerful.
Good for you - you stay stubborn and never give up. With big problems I think it's often the long-term haul (even with mistakes) that gets us there.
You can do it!
I kept a journal like that for awhile, just so that I could look at things in "black and white". But your two threads are much better.
Glad you're okay.
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Billy
Welcome back. :)
Your post reminds me of my insanity with alcohol. I spent years trying to control something I'd lost control and all power over. I can't fight it. I had to accept and find a power greater than me to rely on to keep me from that first drink.
I go to meetings mainly to remind me of who I am. Your share helps too.
So do you have a sponsor? Did you talk to her?