Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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acinorev92 04/01/2013

I went to the bar a couple days ago for a friend's birthday party, and all of my friends know I don't drink but I also had told them I might drink if I felt I could handle it and be okay... I ordered a drink, slammed it and kept going.....my friends had to drag me out of the bar in order to get me to stop.... I was such a mess, I'm so embarrassed and even still once my friends got me home all I wanted to do was continue drinking... I did more than just back-slide in my sobriety..I am completely devastated, and so incredibly disappointed in my self.. It's set me so far back, I've fallen back into a depression which of course makes me want to drink even more.... All I can think about is going out and getting incredibly drunk and being reckless..and that's not at all who I am... I respect myself, I don't party..yet that's all I want to do.... Today is day 1 of my sobriety, I no longer look to the day I can have a casual drink..I look to the day I no longer have any desire to drink.

abshoefreakshow 04/01/2013

U can say that was water under the bridge. I would not dwell on it, but do what you were doing before. I saw that you were 88 days sober before this episode. Do what you did last time, it seemed to work (excluding this last incident). I am in the same boat as far not being able to have a casul drink. If I have a sip it is all over for me. Be thankful, your situation could be alot worse.

deleted_user 04/02/2013

Chin Up Up Up! You'll get up to where you were at before again faster then you think. It could be worse. Its so easy to get stuck in the guilt, it's day 2 of sobriety for me, and barely. I think when you realize you're so not alone in this feeling, I used to call it a "case of the sundays" because I felt SO guilty and embaressed every Sunday for Friday and Saturday nights drunken antics.

I too was good with not drinking for a little while now and I got so bad this past Saturday that I missed seeing my family for Easter Sunday. Not to mention I was interupting and telling everyone (strangers in my new town) that I was a youtube celebrity....and I was apparently making lude gestures at the bartender....I was SO humiliated to hear all this but I guess I can see how some people would just see the humor in it and move on.
The time before this past Saturday people, Valintines Day, people were playing quarters and I invaded their game and put the quarters in my mouth and tried to spit them in the cup...as if hat would be so very creative and amazing. Needless to say after that the game was quickly over. Ughh I'm too old to do these things but it happens and I'll try not to again. I'm sure the people that beared witness will forget eventually and if not, I'll just have to try and redeem myself next time by not being a total wreck and by laughing at myself. It happens. I think the trick is try to avoid making the same mistakes. And the fear of it being worse should keep it from happening again, I know I forget but it really could have been so much worse.

magdolna 04/02/2013

It happened to me, after 2 years that I drunk for almost a week...went back to AA. Now sober for 17 months.
I can really understand your depression, shame and disappointment,
During these sober months I somewhat realized that the relapse actually helped me to live in the present, to know for sure that I cannot have alcohol in my system. I live day by day.
Mistakes we all make. They are good if we learn from them.
I wish you that the day comes soon when you no longer have the desire to drink. When you really desire to stop. I'm so lucky, my God took away my cravings. May take He away yours as well!
All the best!

asthmasucks 04/02/2013

i slipped on saturday and was so humiliated and disgusted with myself to see myself sloppy. Its not a pretty sight seeing a female sloppy drunk. i didnt make easter service at church , didnt make easter dinner with family. I know exactly what you and baby dusty are going through. your not alone, but today i wont drink, i know its my demon and my poison so im praying to keep it away

deleted_user 04/02/2013

I was on the AA Experiment Team/Field Testing Unit once, too. Thought I could have just one or two. Ended in a three-day bender. I learned. Hopefully you did as well. You are NOT alone in this experiment.

CoogeeMum 04/02/2013

That you told friends you 'might' drink sounds like you weren't very committed to staying sober that night. If you think you might, then you probably will. acinorev there's no failure if you get back up, learn and make some changes in your life. Glad you stayed safe to make it back. and today's a new day. One where you can begin to look at what change you need to make in the short term so that you can build foundations in your sobriety for the long term.

acinorev92 04/03/2013

I thought I was ready to drink socially... I thought it would be okay.. I should have known the second I slammed my first drink when I saw my ex and his new gf (my "best friend") walk in that I wasn't ready and I should have stopped... It's a slippery slope.. once you slip, it's hard to stop sliding till you hit the bottom and have to climb back up. I'm committed to staying sober, I'm not going to make that mistake again... All I want to do is drink though.... It's so difficult having to start over... I had forgotten just how hard it is to start from the bottom again.

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