Anna-many of us did exactly what you've done....the guilt & remorse & feeling like a complete jackass the "next day" is something we've all felt honey and that is such a shitty feeling! I don't miss that feeling at all. Used to be a daily thing for me, you don't want to feel that way anymore, you know what to do.

Amber-it's cool as hell that you're offering to take Anna to a meeting. :)

And yeah, the number thing...well you've already been schooled..hee hee....

Anna-I hope you feel the love girl, cause there's lots of it here...and yep, we'll love you until you can love yourself and you CAN learn to love yourself and it's such a fantastic feeling!! Go get yours! :)

Ann......read your PM & we'll do this meeting.
GOYA & lets get started on this new exciting journey!
Billie

Damn girl, did you read all those replies?

Up to you now. Everybody cares. Gotta get off the schnide and live.

Come on.

hope u r alright anne... and you are not a asshole but i see as someone struggling...i realy hope u find your way back on the horse... ur in my prayers :)

Hi howtolive, I think you need to hear that you do hurt people. I won't baby you or your disease. The acid you project onto others hurts and watching you destroy yourself is devestating to watch. Alcoholism destroys us and abuses others. Finding blame and looking for excuses will keep you drunk. A friend mentioned to me last night that she is worried about you and wished she could get you to keep from posting when you are wasted. I told her that you were going to make it. Also that we can't stop people from doing what they want to. Not going to enable your addiction by saying "It's ok". I'm saying all of this as a sister who has been there and hurt people in exactly the same way. You aren't a bad person, you have a bad illness. Some will critisize me and make some smart ass remark that I am not "AA enough. Welp, oh fucking well... Just know I love you and there ain't a damn thing you can do about it. I'm praying and cheering for you.

I just saw the title and wanted to say that I am an asshole, yes, too! Big freakin deal, right? Now get off your pot asshole and lets get you moving! Come join the sober assholes club-we all have been there my dear!

(_O_) ....that there is my code for hello! in the sober asshole club.

Come on on darlin, we can do this. xo

Anne,

The only thing you need to change about yourself is to keep the booze outta' ya'. The rest God will do for you, if you let it happen. Your most helpful advice on this thread is that which offers you hope and help. NOW, take the hand that has been extended to you. Let the hand of God reach out through the people that have extended theirs. To corny, huh? But you expected that out of me, right?

Wayne-

just do what you can to finally get it in your head that there is one disease, one cure. no magical words or easy solutions. this is hard core recovery and it will take all of your being, all of your courage,i hear your anger and don't assume it's directed in the right direction. assume that perhaps you just need to clean house, get down to business,and join us who already have tried and discarded the path you now suggest for yourself. truly, it's not so bad. truly, you are not unique. truly, we are a family of sorts. join us.

Uh..... Karmic, I hate to bring this up but that little thing looks as if it's been tampered with...... LOL

Sorry Anna, carry on.........

are you talking about that bomb? :-)

Tiny, that is not a bomb.... in the US we would call that a "bum". LOL

Ya say drinking makes it all better.
I really don't know of anything that will be better tomorrow, from me drinking today.

Asshole no, attention starved little girl maybe. I can only share my experience and my is with AA. The book teaches me that my disease is centered in my head. That my thinking is based on my emotions and that my emotions are sick and will lie to me every time. Sick emotion, sick thinking then sick reactions. That is how we opperate. Sometimes that logical part of our mind sees the surface but for the most part sick sick sick. Immature, deformed, instints run rampant. What ever want to call it. All boils down to the fact that we can not trust our thinking. Just knowing what little I know about you seems that you pride yourself in your thinking so to say. I was taught that AA was not for those who want it or those who need it but for those who do it. So if I really honestly wanted this I would spend every sober minute I could learning how to get it. Will help anyway I can. Not because I have to but because I choose to.