No ... Often think easier if I had ... I just stick one day and realised, I was wasting my God given life ... Love , hope snd prayers ... Les

Good questions.... I thought I hit my rock bottom right around Christmas. I "surrendered" Jan 3, 2010 and stayed sober 51 days before I decided I hadn't really surrendered and had to give it another go. That next binge lasted about 3 weeks until I stopped again March 14. I have 17 days sober now.

I have told myself a thousand times "This is the last day" or "I'm never drinking again". All I can do is keep trying. I try something a little different each time. This time I am on my knees praying morning and night that my obsession be removed among other things.

There really wasn't a "moment" for me. I just got sick of myself. This 17 days is the first time I am without a desire to drink. I can only hope and pray my obsession will not come back.

The thing about bottoms is that you can always dig another one until they throw the dirt on you. I totaled my car and lost my job. I did 90 days in county jail and was hopeless. I thought that was all I had and was on my knees begging for help. Even after all that, I started working steps and got a sponsor and still tried it my way one more time for a short bender, thank G-d. I have been sober three years this month. It is the longest amount of sober time in my life. Am I through with the insanity, I hope so.

Shawn

It comes slowly. I think you reach a threshold, where you think/know you are over your head, you know that you are hurting your body, but don't really seem to care, at first. If I had to say what point for me, I guess it was when I was "kicking" one night around 3:00 in the morning, out of alcohol (a miscalculation on my part) and ALL that I did not want to do, is die right hear and now. Die an alcoholic. We are all going to die someday, but at that point for me I decided I wasn't going to die from abusing alcohol. What a waste. It took a couple of times to get it right/quit, but I did it.

I think for me it was a combination of things or days.

I know I had reached a stage of being sick a tired of being sick and tired .

It may have been the morning after the day before when I was released from the police station after being charge with my 7th DUI and I phoned my wife to tell her the look of utter disgust in her eyes as she came to pick me up.That look I had seen many times but this time it was different.

I had hit many rock bottoms this was one. I am so thankful that none of the rock bottoms had a trap door in them ,in so far as I didn't take a drink and come to with a wet brain or i didn't kill myself or some other innocent person

If I ever pick up another drink, today I am aware this could happen and I may fall straight through the trap door of another rock bottom. So that is one of the reasons I am thankful for and will fight for my sobriety.

So as I said for me I don't believe it was a single day but a combination of days.

God Bless...

Lionel

I think I decided "this is it" after being in a blackout for a few days and drifting in and out of consciousness. I passed out on the couch at some point during a Saturday afternoon and woke up at midnight thinking I had only been asleep for about an hour.....it scared the shit outta me cause this was one of those FAILED attempts at controlling my drinking.

I was only gonna have a couple of glasses of wine on Friday night. I drank the entire big fat bottle and then Saturday morning, I went to buy another to last me for the weekend. That one was gone plus a 3rd by noon on Saturday.

At least I think..I remember going to the store for the 3rd bottle and ...I got a wild hair and decided that I HAD to have a Bob Seger CD and I had to have it at that moment, so I drove to the store and bought it and then posted on here about how the words to "We've got Tonight" reminded me of my love affair with vodka! lol! But sad....

I think I thought I was deep and titled the thread "If booze could talk..." lol! I honestly was in one of those deep sad & dramatic moods.

I remember being in a chat room that night too....wow! That seems like a lifetime ago....

Euro, you have popped in so many times since I have been on this forum for the last 2 years... Are you kidding with this question? Jeeeeeeeez

Thanx peeps.......No not kidding....Dreaming....I dont come here that much.

What I have noticed on here is that "rock bottom" is so different for everyone. Also, the decision to stop drinking is different for us all...

I guess the question is:

Do you want to stop drinking?

You will make that decision when life's lesson falls upon you. It will eventually happen. Hopefully you are in a place in your life where you can stop before it all goes to hell...

You don't deserve that. If you are not in a place to try AA, I hope you will try it.

Peace and ease

I don't know if I hit "rock bottom."

I woke up one morning with a hangover. But it felt like more than a hangover, I felt sick, really sick, and I realized, in no uncertain terms, that I was killing myself. And I decided to quit. It was not just my conscious mind saying, "OMG, I have to stop drinking!" It was a decision deep inside. After not drinking for a day, I tried to again, but I couldn't... it was too late. I just couldn't start drinking again.

"this is the day"? every morning. i pray that i won't find the strength to stop at my enabling store.

do my prayers go unanswered? i think not.............i think there is a plan...............and it centers around my arrogance and dependency on something less..

i am stocking up on canned goods and soda...........'cause when it explodes in my face it will be tough.


i did think ahead and tied a life line to my remote.



hagn all and a blessed weekend

peace, whispers and hugs lew

Rehad march-11,2010,,black and blue one side body fell ??when ???,,were???scared shit out of me ,was in hospital first luckie rehab was just up stairs,,,doing ok now back in work,,,