Well, you can start with this website. Are you tired of drinking yet? That's the first step- being really tired it, and it sounds as if you are.

There's the old phrase of "one day at a time" and it really works. The idea is that you simply need to stay sober TODAY. Tomorrow - well you can worry about it when it comes. Staying sober is a daily commitment that you make to yourself. It's tough when you start, but it really does get easier. If you have no one to talk to, keep checking in on this site- there's lots of good advice.

Our only requirement is a desire to quit, and you definetly have that.
Just know that alcohol will always beat you down, for some reason it always wins.
You can find a new way of life, and enjoy your new way of life.
You can enjoy your grandbabies and your own babies lives. You can be there for them, and show them how alcohol doesn't have to be a crutch for daily life. You can be an inspiration.
This site is a great place to get your stategy together. ~~JUMP ON~~

I hate it drinking, and l love it to, , l love that first drink how it makes me feel. and i hate the last one, that l dont remember having.

I get scared to go home after work, as l know the first thing i will do is pick up a drink!

Tonight l will try to do the Today thing, today i will be sober, but i really have to concentrate on that thought!

Im going to write a big not on my alchohol DONT DO IT !!!

sounds like you are in a awful spiral downward and feel trapped. Sometimes we need others to help pull us out. Can you call the AA hotline and ask for someone to come by and help you get a game plan for recovery? Dont have to be all into AA my dear, just use it that is what these people do, it keeps them sober to help you! DOnt think it through to much, just call and get help, you sound so alone. YOu need someone to help kick start your recovery sounds like. We are all in this together!

i know i been there done that till i lost myself and i had a breakdown noone to help me my family didnt want to know till i stopped and they had to take me to hospital am not saying it going to be easy but you can do it iv been to hell and back and so have you i havent had a drink in 18 months if you need help theres lots of people on here that will help they helped me if you need to chat about anythink am here you can do it we can do it together hugs and hope and pray for you

I remember sitting there w/ the phone book looking up anything that had to do w/ alcohol. Talked to some helpful - some not so helpful people. I do remember it helping me to feel not so all alone. I wish I had called the A.A. hotline. I didn`t know about it then. Sounds like they can tell you the first thing to do. I know I never knew just where to start or what to do so I just kept going round and round in circles. Good luck. believe it or not this can be done! you are in my prayers.

okay tonight im doing it.... Yes Jacker, that was a good question "Are you tired of drinking yet" Yes i am so tired of it. I remembered those words all day!

And Yes Jacker Today i need to be sober,,, thats what im doing Today... So far , so good, i have missed my usual drink time at 4pm, its now 7.18 and im feeling good about it.

Im not going to have a drink .

Thank you all for being her... Thank you for not making me feel bad . You all gave me one common piece of advice, it was hope, and it was that l can do it, because you are doing it... none the comments were involving critisism,,, that was what i was scared of,,, someone telling me how bad i am for not being able to conquer this stupid craving

How are you doing today, peachy? The first days are so very, very tough to manage on your own.
I hope you are doing well.
Kate

Thank you for asking woohoo (kate) Grrrr i really feel like a drink, and im telling myself stupid messages like, you can handle it, if you have just one, that will be alright. But i know if i have one i will have another, and on and on... So im not having one, very hard. Drinking horrible cups of green tea.

but im not going to have a drink today. thanks for asking , it is bit hard , but thats just also showing me im addicted, normal people dont crave , so l have a problem

Peachy if you are really serious about it I know that you can get medical help in your country (like the UK) that those in the Us cant without having loadsa money. Its called home detox - speak to your doctor about it - but only do that if you're ready to stop - you would be a priority I think given your other health problems good luck

We can do this! I found this place yesterday. Today is day 3 of not touching a beer for me, and it feels so good to wake up and not feel like crap from a night of drinking. I am embracing THAT feeling, the feeling good, and replacing the wanting to drink feeling with the feeling good feeling....if that makes sense! I brought my daughter to school, stopped for a coffee to bring home and will get on my treadmill and do a good work out to make myself feel even BETTER about myself. Thats what works for me, maybe for you it would too, just fill in those times that you think you might crave alchohol with something else..your favorite soft drink, an ice cream, something else that will fill that space, and then when you're done with that ice cream, smile at how good you feel, and go on to the next thing!
I know it will be a LOOOONG trip for me. Lots of people will be asking me why I'm not drinking when I'm at social functions. I just have to tell them that I'm trying to get my body back into top shape, and alchohol doesn't fit into that for me anymore. When people quit smoking, they chew carrots, or gum to fill that void. We're addicted to alchohol...we need to replace it with something else. I'm not a church going person, and have my personal reasons for that and hope nobody judges me because I don't judge them, so after all is said and done, AA won't be anywhere I can go. But you and I can find out how strong we are INSIDE, and we can beat this, and by coming here, we can do it together!!
YOU CAN DO IT.

I can do this, today day 2 i feel so much better, i feel proud of myself, no cravings this morning,,,, now the test tonight, going out to dinner with friends

GET TO AN AA MEETING
ALL THE BEST,
LEANNNNAPLES

This site is one of my best tools now for my recovery. I incorporate it with other things I do. If you want to get a little clean time, and be with people that care and understand, you can try Detox. I got help at Detox because I just couldn't do it on my own. You can go to A.A. meetings where they will accept you. They understand because they've all been there. Right now you need people. You can't do it on your own. I think you realize this. Try not to beat yourself up. I know it's hard not to when we realize the predicament that alcohol has gotten us into. Just keep trying, anyway you have to. Don't ever give up. It will work for you too. All the best. James

this is a good place to be...also t.ry AA...they are all over the world.