Just here to remind everyone how bad drinking damages your organs. Im 47 very little over weight, no family history of heart disease and been healthy my whole life. People look at me and say I would never know your a binge drinker or smoker but 9/15/14 I had a heart attack and by the grace of God was in the hospital when I went into cardiac arrest! The widow maker 100% blocked. I would not be here to tell my storey if not for the wonderful Dr and Nurses who brought me back with no brain damage or other bad things that happen to people in that situation. If you have read any of my journals I have had a hard time staying sober. Don't need a drink every day but on weekends lookout, so ugly for a woman or anyone to look at this time in my life. Well on Tuesday I got another wake up call geez how many does my dumb ass need! I have another blockage and going in for hopefully just 1 stent and nothing worse. I thank Sosa hope I spelled that right for her latest post. I am committing myself to that freedom, it's life or death at this point. I'm emotional today because I have been saying I'm going to get sober but that was just a word. Today I feel it and saying goodby to my drinking that is no longer my friend but my killer and enemy. God bless.