Yea-if you are an alcoholic it is who you are. THe real miracle is to go against your nature and save yourself!

Hey, dont beat yourself up. It happens to lots of us early on and it is about having an untreated condition (alcoholism) which can be treated.

Remember that the solution on offer in AA is not just about attending meetings but about the 12 step program too. Dont consign yourself to a lifetime of drinking until you have tried everything AA has to offer.

While you are in your early days and havent yet got into applying any sort of solution it might be wise to stay safe and avoid situations where you are likely to find it difficult. Now I can go anywhere and do anything but in my early days I was very careful about what i did and I stayed away from anywhere risky until I knew that i had a good solution in place.

Possible for you to get to a meeting tomorrow? Try and find some women there who can help you face to face.

PM me if I can help out too.

"Maybe this is just who I am"? Do you like who you are or would you like yourself better sober?

If 8 days fealt good, imagine 80 days. Plan for it.

Thank you everyone for responding. I go to a meeting tomorrow night. I know it is what I need.

I have a friend in AA who just 'blew' 8 months sobriety! Gutted for her. Why? She was attending meetings yet that was ALL she was doing. She didn't get on and do the 12 step program. She wasn't prepared to do the work. So when she hit a big obstacle in life, she went back to the only solution she knew; alcohol.

Listen at your meetings. Identify with others. Listen to people who have good sobriety (don't share shit, seem contented, talk about how life is today, the big book etc). Go a few times and ask one to sponsor you. The quicker you get a new solution (12 step program), the quicker you can move away from using alcohol.

Thank you for the posting and reminding me of the daily 'fight' I used to have with alcohol.

good luck

Beth, congratulate yourself on the 8 days of sobriety and for getting yourself back to an AA meeting. Try to focus on what you have achieved, not on what you didn't achieve. If you don't yet have a sponsor, look around the meetings and find someone you can approach.

Stick with this and watch your life change for the better. Best of luck to you.

Augusta

not everyone gets years and years of continuous sober time racked up. However, drinking one day doesn't change the fact that you were sober for the 8 days prior. Maybe you will have a rougher time with staying sober than other alcoholics. So what if ya do? If you only get a combined total of 30 years sober out of the next 45, that's 30 years where you got to live your life. Unfortunately AA doesn't recognize combined totals of sober time, only continuous periods of sobriety. Don't beat yourself up over drinking after 8 days, 8 months, etc. Just do the best ya can and enjoy the sober time that you can pull out of it. That means more than the color of the AA chip in your pocket. Good luck

Ditto on #6 and #9. It works. You'll be amazed and how your life will change.

All the best.

~Chris

today is a new day to start over.

Sorry that you blew it, beth. But you should still be proud of the 8 days you stayed sober!!! Shows ya can do it!!!
Good luck!!! I hope you find a way that works for you!!! (((((Hugs)))))

Miss Beth, Don't be to hard on yourself. Everyone has a issue and drug of choice. Whether it is sex, drugs, food, porn, smoking & etc. Nobody's perfect hun. I still believe we can overcome anything. I wish you the best Miss Beth.

Hopefully you can learn from this. I don't know how you feel about it, but I would hate to end up on a relapse merry-go-round, where I had to keep quitting again and again. Sounds like a tough way to live.

On the plus side, you made it to 8 days. You can do it again. This time keep going!

If at first you don't succeed, try try again. Only this time, change something because it didn't work first time round yeah. I'll just add that if you accept that this is who you are, and tell yourself this is who you are, you'll most likely remain this person. Get some self-speak happening there with a twist. Change the cant's and wont's to the can's and will's. You CAN take a different path Beth. Up you get, and give it another shot. Don't give-up.