You cant "deal with the multiple issues" you have got going on by getting drunk.

Have you been diagnosed with depression? You do know that alcohol is classified as a depressant, right? Maybe your drinking is why you are "high depressed".

I got sober in AA and remain sober for going on 15 years. No more shame and confusion for my anymore.

Hello thedane,

Some people get a bad toothache but they hate going to the dentist so they suffer the pain for days until eventually, they decide that they have had enough. Similarly, with alcoholism, the pain is going to keep getting worse until some sort of treatment is applied.

Many alcoholics come to a point where they feel that cannot live with alcohol or live without it. The first part is based on reality and the “cannot live without it” is fiction that comes from a brain that is ravaged by alcohol. From my own experience, I can tell you that the fear of living without alcohol will disappear completely once you have been sober for a while.

Personally, I was unable to stay sober without the help of Alocoholics Anonymous but once I started going to meetings, what had been totally impossible before became not only doable but almost easy.

Thank you both for you reply
To answer you question
No I have not been diagnosed by a doctor for depression, but I know I am and I also know I have to deal with it together with my alcoholism
I am working on putting a plan of attack together
I know aa is not for me, glad it worked for both of you and congratulations on being sober, glad to hear there is light at the end of the tunnel
If you stay the course and those the right pathway to heal from this disease
Thank you again

When I went through outpatient treatment, I learned that not only was I destroying myself with the bottle, but also my family in the process! That was 9 years ago and after seeing the collateral damage I caused to those I loved, I never, ever, want to hurt them again, and I will do everything within my power to prevent that from happening. This is why I sometimes attend AA meetings for more support.

I also had alot of fear in dealing with multiple issues but I was treated for those problems in the 3 week IOP I was in. Every hospital has them. You just need a referal from your family doctor or you can go to the alcohol and substance abuse center at your nearest hospital, for an evaluation. They will simply ask you a bunch of questions designed to measure the severity of your alcoholism, so they can know the best treatment options to give you.

I remember every wednesday was family day and our family was invited to participate in a question and answer session with us and with the counselors to help us readjust to a sober lifestyle but it was AA which gave me the best support. I got a sponser and did the steps which helped me tremendously!

Today, I am happier then I have ever been in my life! I wish the same for you!

God Bless

Thank you bobinmaine
I am hurting really bad @ this very moment, but I wll get though this
I am not going to let alcohol ruin my life anymore
I hope to find happiness some day


Thank you

Man i can remember the remorse and guilt just like it was yesterday. And the shame. Its possible to recover but I just couldnt do it on my own. I tried over a thousand times but the pull of the bottle was just too great. I found help in the rooms of aa. Saved my life. I made many, many plans... i would plan to just have a couple... plan to just drink on the weekends... plan to just buy two... well that was just torture. If i drink one Im drinking till its gone. period. Let us know how the plan works for you. I just could not get any sort of time with out aa. now i am over 4 years off the drug, alcohol. its a drug and highly addictive. its more addictive than heroin i hear. thats what i was doing just shooting up booze into me so I felt better. It was hel.
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AA is working for me! that and the gym. find AA and an outlet for your time and energy and you will be set up for success! you can do it!

i just saw your comments about it not being for you.... I'm sorry u feel that way. mayyyybe you can give it one more shot. a different meeting perhaps? its great support!

Will for sure let you know
I know the temptation will be many , like tonight where I meet some friend for dinner
I held firm though making up an excuse that I was on medicin
I know I need a better solution than that but at least it got me though the night
And that all I am asking for a this time
Tomorrow is a day. I will be spending on putting an attack plan together to combat this disease
Thank you for listening
I has been great talking with all of you here today

:) hugs

I fought it for about 20 plus years, this time i just surrendered. Now that was never, ever in my wheelhouse, but the strangest thing happened when I just said I give... it was easier. Some how many ppl with an issue are very intelligent, smart, and self reliant. But when we realize that we cannot control everything, like I did at age 14... I sought the relief of booze. If I cant be in control, well I will just go stick my head in the sand... The world was still chomping on my as, but I was able to "be in control" when I was out of control. Its a baffling thing. I have found from experience that it is physically impossible to lift myself by my bootstraps. it just wont work. now when I ask for a hand, then something happens that allows my alcoholism to step aside. Also it was amazing how my depression and anxiety magically disappeared when I stopped injecting alcohol in my veins.
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