Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
It's a pretty amazing feeling. On the one hand, I am looking over my shoulder constantly and waiting for the other shoe to drop. On the other hand, I recognize that I have made some major changes in my life that this feeling of freedom can be attributed to.
My life started falling apart 2 years ago. Last summer I felt paralyzed. Even during periods of sobriety, I could not get UNSTUCK. I was miserable almost every day. I could not sleep or get on a schedule. I pretty much stopped feeding myself. A few mos ago when I was in treatment, I panicked when they said we each had chores to do - I felt so incredibly dysfunctional - I could not imagine being able to clean a bathroom, wash dishes, or sweep/mop a floor. I felt like I had to relearn all this stuff everyone else already knew.
Today... I feel great. A huge huge weight that I didn't realize I was carrying has been lifted. For the first time in a long time, I want to live and live well. I no longer feel trapped and I no longer have that intense craving for escape.
I am in the process of cleaning, purging, and organizing my house, and I can't wait to be able to paint and do some remodeling. It has been MANY YEARS since I have had any of this motivation. I can't even believe sometimes that this is my life and that this time in sobriety I feel okay.
"How to live" ...I didn't know when I got here. I have been so lost feeling in this life. All of a sudden in the last few mos, it is coming together for me. I am FINALLY feeling UNstuck. The feeling is truly indescribable.
Just thought I would share.
My life started falling apart 2 years ago. Last summer I felt paralyzed. Even during periods of sobriety, I could not get UNSTUCK. I was miserable almost every day. I could not sleep or get on a schedule. I pretty much stopped feeding myself. A few mos ago when I was in treatment, I panicked when they said we each had chores to do - I felt so incredibly dysfunctional - I could not imagine being able to clean a bathroom, wash dishes, or sweep/mop a floor. I felt like I had to relearn all this stuff everyone else already knew.
Today... I feel great. A huge huge weight that I didn't realize I was carrying has been lifted. For the first time in a long time, I want to live and live well. I no longer feel trapped and I no longer have that intense craving for escape.
I am in the process of cleaning, purging, and organizing my house, and I can't wait to be able to paint and do some remodeling. It has been MANY YEARS since I have had any of this motivation. I can't even believe sometimes that this is my life and that this time in sobriety I feel okay.
"How to live" ...I didn't know when I got here. I have been so lost feeling in this life. All of a sudden in the last few mos, it is coming together for me. I am FINALLY feeling UNstuck. The feeling is truly indescribable.
Just thought I would share.
Stay focused and keep moving ahead in the program.
xo
I have outgrown it. I finally realize I CAN do this. It IS really doable. ...Life that is. Why did it take me so long to get here?
I was hell bent on martyring myself to save someone else. And there is no nobility in that. It was all fear based.
I don't "get it" but I am going to enjoy this anyway.
Philosophical? Are you being sarcastic?
Nice Avi Tiff. There is help for that. ;-p
I love the idea of actually cleaning out your house and doing some painting, etc. on your own. Good stuff.
I knew I was carrying a weight, I just didnt know how to offload it. Its not gone, but the root cause of so much of it is. So now its about rebuilding and learning how to live.
thanks again for the inspiring post:)