Great news! AA and the 12 steps helped me finally break the string of relapses I had trying to quit on my own.

Wishing you continued success and please keep us posted!

You go back to meetings I assume online they closed the country and AA adapted by zooming meetings.
Only need one sponsor. Good you have choice as some are qualified sponsors others are not. By that I mean have worked the twelve steps themselves with sponsor to lead them thru. They are not babysitters but should help you answer any questions about alcoholism and road to recovery thru twelve steps

Thanks Yes, we did it on Zoom. The constant string of relapses always happens. I'm feeling good about this program.

I am really glad you came to that conclusion and took that leap of Faith. Many are too afraid to take that step. I remember when I went to my first meeting. I sat in my car out in the parking lot too afraid to walk through the door. Then I went home to my wife and told her I attended a meeting. I did that a few more times before I worked up enough courage to walk through that door and when I did, it was the best decision, I ever made.

That was 12 years ago. Now I have a great life and I have never been happier. I have seen for myself, how great life can be after drinking.

The minute you decided to cross that boundary to attend that meeting was the first minute your journey to recovery began and I applaud you for taking that step into the unknown.

Good luck on your journey and may you find peace and happiness along the way.

I used to call myself the "Relapse Queen". Some times in jest, many other times in desperation.

Then I had an epiphany - as long as I considered myself a "relapser", I was giving myself tacit permission to relapse once again. After all, I was the "relapse queen", was I not?

At some point during my early struggles with long-term, quality sobriety, I decided (made a decision???) that I do not relapse, just as I do not drink alcohol. I haven't relapsed since. Of course, I also worked the steps completely (all 12) with a competent (and "demanding") sponsor.

Working all 12 steps is paramount if one wants solid sobriety. I used to do what I call the Relapse Waltz. I would to Steps 1,2,3 then relapse. 1-2-3 Relapse. 1-2-3 Relapse.

During my early attempts at sobriety, desperation and despair made it relatively easy to complete the first three steps. I had always trusted God, so Steps 1,2 and 3 didn't cause me discomfort (other than admitting I had a problem and need help, but by that time, it was abundantly evident I couldn't get sober on my own).

Discomfort came in the guise of the "clean house" portion of the AA program (Steps 4 - 9) when I had to dig deep into myself and acknowledge my character defects, flaws and failures, and make restitution for the damage my alcoholism had inflicted on others.

But it wasn't until I completed those Steps that I learned to love myself, that I was able to forgive myself and that I was able to rid myself of the inner demons that drove me to alcohol as an attempt to quiet and silence the demons, if only temporarily.

Once I completed the Steps, sobriety was no longer a chore I had to do for the rest of my life. Sobriety became an ingrained part of me, not something that I do (go to meetings, talk to my sponsor, etc), rather it became who I am.

I wish you Godspeed.

Work the steps. Find a sponsor that has what you want. You don’t need two and you don’t need to rush.

I was also very afraid to try AA but was so happy and relieved when I finally did it.

It's a great program and there is this refreshing feeling I have everytime I'm finished with a meeting that is just so great. I think everyone should at least give it a try to see if it's a good fit.

Congratulations on taking the step forward and attending a meeting.