I have gone back and forth with wondering if I'm an alcoholic. Perhaps I've been in denial about it for a long time. I started drinking like most when I was a teenager. I did it with my friends to just have a good time and continued that into my 20's. It wasn't until my late 20's that I started wondering if I was an alcoholic after I started stress drinking or drinking to deal with my anxiety and insomnia. My relationship is a disaster and I would grab a drink to not have to think about all of it. I used it to numb my feelings and not think about it. As of late I drink just to drink. I would say I'm a functioning alcoholic. I work, pay my bills and get all the things done that need to be done. I don't withdraw from it but that may be because I haven't had to go without it. I wake up the next day after drinking feeling quilt and telling myself I won't do it again but always end up doing it. I'm just to my breaking point now and really need help. Anyone have any advise on how to not think about drinking or things to do besides drink?

Thanks in advance