Well, if you have already decided that a way to recover is not for you, then you already have a closed mind. Alcohol will kill you so much quicker as a diabetic because it contains so much sugar, sitting on your ass reading posts here will not get you sober.

You live in a small town?? They will all know that you are a drunk so why would it be a problem for you to be seen seeking a solution. Pride is horrible thing because it'll take you down and smash you to pieces. Swallow your pride and get some help.

small town AA is some of the best AA....they are all there because the group does not want to drink....some of the best friends you will ever find could be sitting there and if you do not go you will never find out they are there....all of them will welcome you with open arms...and some of them because of their own jobs might want you to hold their anonymity themself....just give it a try it will open your eyes....and you might be better off not drinking in diabetes drinking is bad bad bad...I too am diabetic but got sober before got diagnosed diabetic....that made things easy....now where a person asks why I do not drink I have alternative to saying I am alcoholic...I can tell them I am diabetic so I do not drink,....make sense?
welcome hugs bill

I'll have to go along with the others here linda. The solution to your problem lies in the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous. I too became diabetic as a result of alcoholism. I didnt contract it until I was ten years sober,but I did kill my pancreas as a result. Your health problems will only get worse. I really think you should reconsider your stance on AA. There is a solution in those rooms and if nothing else it will spoil your drinking .. We'll keep you in our prayers. Greg

Women are at a disadvantage when it comes to drinking. They cannot process alcohol as good as men can and the result is more damage to their bodies!

Every recoverying alcoholic in here can see your future and believe me it's not pretty if you continue your addictive behavior.

Good Luck!

So what would happen if people "knew?" I'm a small town guy and I've some people in "important postions" come into aa. I don't think any of them were adversely viewed in the community
Most of that is in our heads , but it does make a great excuse if that's what you're looking for.

Good luck. I hope reading keeps you sober.

When i checked into rehab they said i had to goto aa and being a smaller town i told them there was noway in hell i was getting in there van and going to a meeting. Well i did and it saved my life. Without a yo have about a 14 percent chance of not drimking agin with aa about a 49 percent chance. Its you choice you make it but if you think you can do it alone and on a web site you better wake up before your next big drunk because you are going to kill your self having diabetes and drinking. You dont have to die there again its your choice you make it. You sure wont be the first i have seen drink themselves to death im sure you wont be the last. The great thing is you dont ever have to drink again if you go to meetings get a sponsor and work the steps. it has worked for millions of others but i thought i was different to SUPRISE i wasnt and neither are you.

So drinking isn't so much fun anymore?

I also drank vodka right out of the bottle. Every day -- I could not figure out how to take a day off from it. I was not playing around either -- and you can damn well be sure that I had vodka on hand at all times, not one or two shots either. No point in having less than a tumbler full.

Yeah, not so much fun and I hated living that way, even as I planned out my next drink. I am so glad I stopped that insanity and no longer drink or want to drink.

If you want to talk about it, I am happy to listen -- keep posting or send a message. I am not in AA -- it is not for me. You can quit with it, you can quit without it -- the important part is to quit.

overworked -- your data on the effectiveness of AA is faulty.

i dont believe so it came from a recent new york times article. At one time the times even reported it higher than this.They have taken out the court ordered factor and have included all of those who actually work a program and use the book for what it is.

Time magazine even hd an article out about a year and a half ago tat it was 5 percent for first timers that work the program. In addition those that had relspsed and came back approximately 50 percent of those that worked a program stayed sober. So if you work a program your chances are great of staying sober

Statistics on the effectiveness or lack thereoff of individual programs never impressed or worried me. I know what was 100% ineffective for me...doing the same thing and excpecting or wishing for or every praying for different results. Personally I don't give a rats behind how many alcoholics and drug addicts moderation or cold turkey or AA works or doesnt work for. I know what is working for me and what has a day at a time for the past 7+ months. I'm so grateful that enough alcoholics in my community felt the same way or similar enough to "suit up and show up" and by doing so stayed sober.
Good luck with the just reading. if it works for you .... wonderful. It most certainly didnt work for me. I needed a full program.

Hi Linda-Well, it was fun for awhile, eh? Now it isn't! Time to move on....But how, right? Well have you considered getting a jump start on your sobriety by going to a rehab center? It helped me tremendously.

Don't rule out AA. That said, don't judge it by what folks bicker about on this board with it. It is can really get silly. I do not attend AA but it is not a black and white thing for me-I went in the past, it helped a lot, and I may go in the future. I never rule out nuttin.

This is about life or death so......DO WHAT you have to do to get better. No matter what!

See if there is any inpatient or outpatient services on your insurance (assuming you have it)? It is a good start.

please people dont be mad that I dont choose AA I feel w/ gods help I hope I can do this................ok so maybe reading post want help just thought i would give it a try but i see that isnt going to work. i did not mean to offend anyone that attends AA for some its great for others its not. justwanted someone to talk to! good lucl to all o you amd god bless! thanks for all your advice...............

Hello linda50,

You have not offended anyone so please stick around. Although I go to AA meetings and it is something that I would strongly recommend, this is not an AA site and you are free to hold any opinion you like.

If AA is not for you it is possible that you will get advice from people who have used an alternative approach. If you leave you will miss out on all of that. You can post as often as you like and you can just read; you can also talk to people here privately when the recent technical bugs get sorted out. It is a great site whatever way you choose to use it.

The people who urged you to go to AA were not having a go at you they were just telling you about what worked for them. Like you, I come from a small place where everyone knows everyone else. When drinking got so bad that I knew something had to be done or it would kill me I looked around at the options. Believe me, if there had been any other way I would never have gone to an AA meeting. For six nights every week I went to meetings in a town that is an hours drive away because I didnt want anyone to see me. After five months I finally went to the local meeting which is only two miles from home and do you know what I had been worrying about nothing. I now go to that meeting every week.

Whatever you decide to do, please do SOMETHING because alcoholism can kill you in the most horrible way. I swallowed a lot of pride when I went to AA but it saved my life. One of the side benefits is that I never had as much fun when drinking as I have now. If I was you I would take a chance on AA.