That question sounds familiar and I asked myself that many, many times. For me a 12 Step programme and a Power greater than myself solved the problem!

Hello shanbanan,

That is pretty much how I felt for a long time but life is good today. Because of my inability to stop drinking on my own I went to meetings of Alcoholics Anonymous and found a programme of recovery that changed the way that I think. It may be worthwhile for you to look into what AA has to offer and you can then decide if it is for you.

wow just you posting this helps me to stay sober today i will pray that you find a solution that helps you to rise up out of that place. I finally had enough and went to a room full of other alchys and we help each other stay sober. You can too. 1is2many

One day you will say no to the demons that haunt you. Don't give up. Keep seeking your higher power or your spiritual realm. You will find it. Keep knocking.

I could never do it on my own either. I tried everything! Self-help books, controlling my drinking (only beer or wine, etc.), I tried to make myself see how much better life could be, journaling... you get the point. Nothing worked until I started going to AA, and started to really listen to what I had in common with the people there... I realized they felt the same exact way as me!! They were desperate too until they got to AA and surrendered.... I am not trying to preach AA, it is just what saved my life and working the step is when I finally found peace! I found that I no longer had to struggle with not drinking! It is amazing!

I hope that you find what works for you. Never, never, never give up! On yourself....a miracle might happen when you least expect it!!

Opting the very best for you!!! If you need anything, you can in box me

If I have ever come close to having a drink, or even a weakness in my personal program, I come here. Reading the reinforcing thoughts keeps me grounded.

Perhaps these words from people here tonight will encourage you to put the drink in your hand down right now.

I believe in the words of the big book. I would pick one up, if you don't have one already.

I know all to well. I've had allot of tragedy happen in my life and would find myself at the bottom of the bottle trying to make it all go away at least for a little while. All it would do is make everything worse and my body was paying for all the damage I was doing. All I cared about was hiding with a bottle and getting wasted. It doesn't help. It's just a vicious cycle because afterwards you just drink more to make the hangover go away and during that whole time for me at least I would dwell on all the negative instead of the positive in my life which is my kids, my husband, family, and friends. I personally am not doing meeting but I have surrounded myself with very supportive family and friends that help me stay on track and stay positive. You can do this. I'm on day 30 now and never thought I would get this far in the beginning but I made it and I'm so glad I did. I can laugh again. I enjoy having fun again without booze. I have more time fore my kids and husband. I'm myself again and it feels great. It's not easy. The first week was the hardest but once you muscle through that it lets up day by day. Well blessings and may you reach your goal. Don't give up!! Don't let the booze win!!

Well said Stronger days......I am finding out through intensive outpatient group therapy why I drink and it is helping me to stay sober.

Shanbanan, I hope your day gets better. Please know you are not alone.

Thank you so much guys. I'm not drinking and almost have gotten through day 1. I'm looking into Alanon and AA as well. I can find the strength within to do this especially with all of your help each of you