Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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confusedmoma 03/13/2008

Lately i have been having dreams where i give in, and start drinking again. These dreams are so realistic to the point where i wake up and feel like crap because it feels like i actually did drink. I sometimes wake up and briefly wonder where i am until i realize it was just a dream. It's horrible, and it has been bringing up alot of garbage and emotions within me. Are these like flashbacks? Or just worries? I am already having a hard time right now, in regards to my sobriety, and these dreams seem to make it worse. I guess what i'm asking is if this is somrthing many people go through when they first sober up. It's been 5 months for me, and it's becoming harder and harder as reality has kicked in now. It is so much work! I feel overwhelmed with fact that i need to work on this everyday... or maybe i am just feeling sorry for myself?? What ever it is, it sucks. I wish i could get back that "pink cloud" feeling i used to have. I used to feel so powerful and positive, and now i feel low and discouraged.Not to the point where i want to drink, but i am starting to feel like i don't know if all this hard work and healing is worth it.It was so much easier to live in denial! So many people and things in my life are unsatisfactory... where the heck do i start?? I guess this is why they say to take it one day at a time, right?I know this, but at the same time i am always worrying about what i SHOULD be doing..sorry for rambling on and on... but i needed to get this off my chest.

deleted_user 03/22/2008

I had one 2 nights ago. I woke up with the worst leg cramps. I think that its the bodies wanting it to fill the addiction. I still want to drink every day. I will sure be happy when or if I get through that.

deleted_user 03/22/2008

HI. I too have these dreams of drinking and I have been sober almost 10 mo. For me, When I realize that it was only a dream, wether or not the dream was a "good drinking episode or bad" I am so eternally grateful that I really didn't drink and that I don't have to feel guilty or ashamed or anxiety ridden or hungover or depressed or angry. Those things are in and of themselves, blessings. Hang in there.. It doesn't necessarily mean that you secretly or conciously want to drink, it just means , I think , that your brain probably has been drunker alont longer than it has been sober and it just goes back to what it knew for a long time. Good that you are talking about it and reaching out.. always a good thing. Have a great day and keep comin back!!!

confusedmoma 03/26/2008

Thank you all so much! You are all so awesome! Honestly i am beginning to realize that being an alcoholic is the best thing that ever happenend to me! lol i know that sounds funny, it's just that i have never in my life felt so good inside and i owe it to the program, and all the wonderful people in it.

deleted_user 03/30/2008

I just recently read this article, its pretty interesting.

http://health.msn.com/health-topics/sleep-disorders/articlepage.aspx?cp-documentid=100172385

4mytasha 03/30/2008

This must be the 50th time I've read this exact post and the LAST time I'll reply.
They are DREAMS (or nightmares as I find mine to be) and guess what? I wake up! Don't YOU?
That's when you are able to say HEY, IT'S NOT REALITY!
Be happy about it and stop questioning WHY.
If you wake up and drink because of a dream, well then you got a problem.
There's nothing that has to be read into it or psychoanalyzed for God's sake.
It a DREAM!
God, I have to leave this place. I haven't read a post that hasn't irritated the crap out of my in a LONG time! :)

confusedmoma 03/31/2008

4mytasha, if you feel obligated to reply to a post and do it in a negative way, then don't bother replying at all (well for my posts anyways)and if you keep getting updates for this one, click on the STOP WATCHING THIS TOPIC on the top of the page. I come here for support, and yes i obviously do have a problem, as your post suggested. I don't appreciate the fact that you stated how annoyed you are by my posted problem, don't read it if you don't like it!

4mytasha 04/02/2008

I DID make a mistake as I posted to this already and just THOUGHT it was the 50th time I read it when in fact, I just RE-read.
My fault.
But I really DO mean it when I say, isn't it GREAT to wake up and find that ALL it was was just a dream (nightmare?)
Or doesn't that make you happy?

confusedmoma 04/04/2008

Yes i am grateful that i am living a sober life. My life has never been better! The dreams just bring back alot of guilt and remorse which i haven't dealt with yet, so these dreams are more of a hindrance than anything else...

deleted_user 04/08/2008

i have been sober 5 years and i had one of them dreams last night they do get few and far between. its just your brains way of working thought something go to a meeting

deleted_user 04/08/2008

I too have wondered why these dreams can make you feel so physically horrible...after all, they are only dreams! How powerful our psychosis is! I even wake up sweating, wondering how that comes with sobriety? A HUGE congrats on the sobriety confusedmoma! You are doing so awesome!! Can I suggest some motivational reading? I know that has always helped me when I have been in the same funk. God Bless C

angelpockets 04/08/2008

Oh Hun1 It's normal... it means you're getting better! I promise!

deleted_user 04/11/2008

Having a nightmare about something may mean you're unable to fully accept it?

Not that you can't accept that you're an alcoholic but that you can't accept the fact that you have thoughts about drinking. Not accepting drinking thoughts by trying to forget about them or pushing them down may have the affect of those thoughts seeking expression in your dreams.

What to do? Realize first of all that your thoughts are not going to harm you and that you don't create most of your thoughts-they just happen. As they come up into consciousness, just observe them and allow them to be there, but don't give them any importance. Give them very little emphasis. In this way, you are accepting them and they get to have their moment of expression and won't need to come back to haunt you in the middle of the night.

deleted_user 04/13/2008

I had a dream today where black widows were all over me so I woke up, there only dreams so don't worry much about them.

deleted_user 04/13/2008

I have woken up with a hangover it has only been a few times.Last time was a couple of years ago.

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