Do you want to stop?

i dont wanna stop drinking but i wanna atleast relax on it

If you are alcoholic, and from you describe - it’s a possibility, that can’t happen.

so how do i stop ?

Well you have to want to stop. But sounds like you’re not sure and that’s OK. I would recommend AA, but that won’t help you slow down your drinking.

Hello sweetheart95! Welcome to the group!

I can relate! I wanted to have my cake and eat it too but it was killing me. Eventually, I figured I had enough and went through a treatment program which included AA meetings. My mother wasn't so lucky because she died of her alcoholism at the age of 54. My father lived longer but died a very painful death which was alcohol related.

It might help you decide what to do by dropping in on an AA meeting. In the meantime, we will keep you in our thoughts and prayers.

God Bless

I also wanted to cut back in the beginning when I realized I had a problem. I soon realized that the problem really was that I couldn't cut back.... pretty much anytime I drank, I drank until I was wasted no matter how badly I wanted to quit after a couple.

It was easier for me to drink none than to drink 2, because having 2 meant 3,4,5,6....out of control.

Once I felt the buzz even a little I was done for for the night.

I quit for a year and a half through AA and then decided to see if my time off would make me better able to control my drinking....it did not. I realized I had no choice but to give it up for good.

If you want.to cut back, I wish you luck.

I drank because it made the world disappear. I was really what was vanishing. I was a shell. A pushover. I was sadly hooked on the drug. Alcohol IS. Drug. It’s sold on the street corner but a legal drug.
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Hello. I spent the last 18 months drinking in the morning. I have had a few days of sobriety here and there for the last 6 months. I am on day 3 again of no drinking and life is so much better without alcohol running through the body. It is a horrible thing waking up and going straight to the bottle. Trying to escape life and reality. So many comments here have helped me understand the situation. One comment by finallyawake stood out, and that was that I was giving up on myself. I new I was giving up on life but not myself. I am determined as I have so much to live for and I just cant take feeling sick again. Yesterday I wanted to drink. I made myself go to the animal shelter and walk dogs even though the weather is still 100. I am so glad I dodge the bullet as I have an interview today and if I had drank I would not be going and guess what , their goes the self esteem down the drain. Living in a bottle is not good. Lets be good to ourselves!

I just saw your age. You are so young and have so much life ahead of you! Talk to your doctor, you may be suffering from depression.

Been there. Only living to stay drunk, but knowing just a little bit more it is impossible and not the real life I always wanted.

If you are like me, it will continue if you do nothing. You have to do something different like go to AA, or pray, or find an area of interest that makes you feel more whole than what your doing now.

When I gave up, and accepted my life needed to include AA, because I needed help personally with my mind and how I thought, it was a relief alcohol couldn't even come close to.