Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I have been around recovery for about 15 years , but have not been sober that long. I had periods of sobriety, but never seemed to really get that I can't drink. I tried everyway to drink, and now I strongly have finally accepted the fact that I just cannot drink. It really is a relief and I'm not strugling anymore with thouts of drinking. That part of my life is over. To me, to drink is to die, and I want to live. I try not to live by emotions anymore because I have found them to be deceiving, the same as thoughts. When I lived by emotions I did what I felt like doing, and it always ended up the same. I have found my God, and to do that I had to put emotions aside because everything in me went against God. My thoughts told me all kinds of nonsense about why I shouldn't persue the God of my understanding. I am glad now that I have learned to do this. It's opened up a whole new world for me. I've learned a great many things that I was ignorant to before. I have learned a whole new meaning to the word love. To me, God is love, and without God in my life I cannot love. I feel this love so strongly now. I find I can love all kinds of people. I like to express my love that I feel now. I don't think it foolish, but sometimes other people don't understand. I'm not saying I go around telling everyone that I love them, but I am not ashamed to show it or say it anymore. Sometimes I feel like I'm alone now, because people don't understand, or they don't trust that love. I know that when I was drinking and using there was no love. This was about the worst fear I had about a life of drinking. To not be able to love and be loved, I think, is the worst possible thing that can happen to a human being. We were never meant to be alone, but that is where using takes us. I like the fact that I can love now. It doesn't have to do with what people look like. I can love a person for what I see in their heart, and to me thats a more true kind of love that I'm glad I have learned, but it can be lonly.
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We are on the same page.You have my respect.
You say, "Sometimes I feel like I'm alone now, because people don't understand, or they don't trust my love." What got my serenity back yesterday was to be reminded that "When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing, or situation--some fact of my life--unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place, thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment." And then I read a hug that someone sent to someone else that helped me tremendously..."I feel sometimes when we fall short, or trip, or stumble that is Gods way of saying slow down and pay attention."
I am so grateful that I found Daily Strength. I know that some say, "you shouldn't rush recovery"...but I am the type who may drink if I can't get what I need to hear at certain moments in struggling...and I can always find my answers here or from someone here guiding me to the Big Book.
I drank so I wouldn't have to feel.
I guess it's time to do the inside job and get some counseling and work out my past.
I heard a speaker the other day say he had to have someone tell him 16 years sober he was not capable of intimacy. That really blew me away.
He started having anger issues and got into counseling and worked through his childhood stuff.
Yeah, there is nothing lonelier then an alcoholic.