Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Going on day 5 with no alcohol.
I'm happy with myself for not giving in. A lot of things have happened to where I usually would've picked up the bottle. Little excuses to say, "oh god...I need a beer."
No I wasn't drinking hard liquor, "just" beer. And I honestly am happy that I'm not drinking anymore.
Sure I wasn't hiding it from my husband but I've been lying about how much I drink to my friends, family, therapist, psychiatrist...other doctors. And I wouldn't be surprised if I screwed myself up already.
My memory was shot, I looked 10 years older than I am, fat, and I can't eat. All I was doing was drinking beer, drinking Dr. Pepper, and drinking monster energy drinks. No water....no juice, no tea, and I would eat one meal a day and either throw it up 5-10 mins later or have explosive diarrhea not even 5 mins after I ate. I lost a lot of weight because I wasn't eating, shitting and throwing up, and just drinking.
I DO want to stop. I have wanted to stop. And being on this medication has helped keep me from drinking.
Husband has brought home 6 packs 3 out of my last 5 dry nights. It's hard as hell.
I'm not completely sober though, I love weed. I have for almost two decades now.
Part of me wants to be completely sober but I don't think I could handle quitting both. So ill start with the alcohol first and hopefully I won't even need the weed?
A lot have noticed that I might drink because I'm unhappy with my marriage. I'm honestly just unhappy with me. I don't know who I am. I'm almost 30 and still don't know who I am. Besides a mom, a wife, an alcoholic, and a fuck up. Ha. So...things do need to change.
I don't think I'm brave enough for AA yet, just thinking about my families reactions is making my stomach heavy. My family is full of alcoholics and only one person has sought out rehab and AA. the rest just act like....they're saints. I might join AA sometime....soon. But not today.
Right now, I'm probably going to throw up, smoke a bowl, and finish my domestic duties. *sigh*
Ugh, anxiety sucks. I don't want to throw up!
Well done on day 5. Whatever about the other stuff that’s going on, you have not taken a drink and that’s great.
Maybe you could encourage your husband not to drink in front of you or leave his beer where you can see it. Put him in the dog house, ha, ha.
your partner could keep alcohol in the kitchen and allow you a room like the sitting room as an alcohol free zone. I have my bed room and being in a heavy drinking family I find having one place to get my thoughts together when hit with temptation has been a great help for me.
well done wishing everyone the best !