I wish you well with your health issues. Glad to hear you are going to a meeting.

Sweets help. Keep yourself in good company. AA people will understand firsthand what you are going through. something that I was told that helped was that holidays are just another day. Nothing special, nothing magical, nothing mystical, just hyped up days that normies love. It is just another day, another 24 hours. I spent my early days of sobriety during the holidays, with AA people.

One thing i did early oh was to write in the back of my bb all the negative things that happened. I wrote things from early on to the day I quit. The thing is, that I would quit I just would start to feel better then think , of course It will be different this time... Now when I get edgy i read that, its amazing how you forget so easy. I dont ever want to go back to that place of being hooked by booze.

i believe in you, it is possible, become a moving target, get busy and go get sober

The booze was how i coped. With the good and the bad. Its all i knew. but aa taught me that there are other ways to cope. I can now deal with the crap life throws my way, because life happens. The bad mood will change and the short temper will stop. Life will get immeasurably better.
i promise
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I'm sorry to say that I busted and only lasted 5 days. I broke up with my boyfriend and feel such pain and heartache. So I'm back on Day 1. Hope I can do it this time. I don't want to die a slow alcoholic death.

Prayers for you. You can do it
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Today is Christmas Day and I'm doing it tough. My immediate family spend Christmas without me so I'm by myself. They have done this for a number of years eventho we still talk on the phone. If the pubs were open I'd probably be down there but thank God they are not so I'm not. This is the 4th day of the official breakup with my boyfriend. Its midday already so the day is half over.

So sorry you are spending Christmas by yourself. I hope you spend it as a sober day. Many here are rooting for you.

Gentle hugs.

It turned out not too be such a bad day. I managed to keep myself amused and stayed sober. Christmas basically over now.

Hello sweetichick,

Glad that you got through the day. Maybe now would be a good time to think about strengthening or renewing the link with your immediate family so that you have people in your life at those special times.

Breaking up with boyfriends can be a good excuse to indulge yourself but it does not have to involve alcohol. There are plenty of alternatives, from beauty treatments to retail therapy at the January sales and all sorts of spare time activities.

Life is short so make the most of it. Dont look back with regrets years from now, thinking I wish I had ..

Smart Recovery may be helpful if you need more help than your getting from A.A. meetings.

Hi there -- Just checking in with you to see how you are today? So glad you got thru Christmas and I hope the next few days were sober ones too. We are all here on this crazy journey together. While we have different paths that brought us here, we have one common purpose to stay here. Hugs, PG

Early sobriety is hard. I don't know of any "magical cures." I too drank for many years. It takes a while to sink as low as I did; and I too drank daily for the last several years.
I don't know why we'd expect "magic." What i've found this board; and AA; and other sober alcoholics offer is hope and help. That's the only "magic" I've needed so far; a day at a time.

Thanks for the encouragement. I am finding it hard. Some days are easier than others. I'm finding I've got a lot of extra time on my hands so time to find some new hobbies. Atm I've been going out clothes shopping with the money I'm saving through not drinking. I was spending up to $20 a day on 2 or 3 bottles of wine. I'm planning on getting my garden going again. I've been feeling very tearful at times, I think its just the regrets on taking so long to see the light on what I was doing to myself. Plus what I've done to my children who I no longer see.