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Day 3 (again) & still angry with myself

Egwene
Egwene
How could I have let alcohol back in? I managed over 9 months of sobriety last year with no problem. I did Christmas and New Year with no problem and felt proud. Then little by little I had a glass of wine here and there - the first one because I was anxious - the others because it was a 'special occasion' Then it became every Saturday night and last weekend every night ending up with over half a bottle of wine, having lost control of myself!

So here I am back at square one. Sad, tearful, lonely, angry and feeling like a fool to have been seduced by the devil again.

Thank goodness for Daily Strength!
1is2many
1is2many
I drank because I'm an alcoholic. I like the effect produced by alcohol. But I have found time and again that if I have one it leads to more.

First you are no fool, it's not a moral thing it's a difference in the way you process alcohol. See I was always the first to start and the last to finish. Most normal ppl get sleepy and tired when they drink. Not me. I get wound up. And I always overdid it.

You can and will get it just keep trying

1-2
Egwene
Egwene
Thank you for your support 1-2. It really helps.

I can totally relate to what you say as that used to be me too. I guess it's the memories of the fun times that create the obsession for more, although the truth is that I felt so much better when I wasn't drinking!
jeffneedshelp
jeffneedshelp
I'm sorry you are back at day 3. It isn't easy to stop drinking. But it's easier if you never restart.
marioncooper1
marioncooper1
When I had 18 months sober, I thought I could have a Special Occasion glass of wine. It didn't work and I fell back to my alcoholic drinking. So much for my research.


I agree with 1-2, This is not a moral thing, You are not a fool. Just a victim of this disease called alcoholism.

Welcome back. Dust yourself off and start again on the road of sobriety.
citychick2011
citychick2011
Hang in there. I'm one of those ones who just can't have a drink. Try again, and never give up. Over a half a bottle of wine only? That's not balls out, in my opinion. You should be able to recover and get back on track easily. We're all in this together. Wishing you peace in your mind today. Nikki
abshoefreakshow
abshoefreakshow
It was your choice, but not the best one. It is not the end of the world, but STOP while your still ahead. Do not dwell on what you can not change. I been in your shoes before... Go enjoy your day without alcohol.
Egwene
Egwene
Thank you everyone for your support - it is helping so very much.

Today I am not as sad and I feel stronger and more determined than ever. It is now day 4. I am thinking of going to my first AA meeting tomorrow night. I feel fear about this but I think I need to meet others who understand me to increase and reinforce my support network.

You are all superheroes in my book!
Precious97
Precious97
Honey I had 4 years sobriety on my side and I thought that one or two drinks wouldn't hurt me and then I was back at square one. Don't give up!! You know the saying;

"It's not how many times you fall, it's how many times you get up."
LuvMyTitans
LuvMyTitans
Wishing you the best and I hope you don't continue to be angry and beat yourself up. That's not going to help you move forward. Please don't do that.

You aren't a fool. You're human, like all of us.

Square one is better than no square at all.

I'm proud of you.

Hugs~
LMT
Egwene
Egwene
Thank you Precious97 and LMT you are beautiful ladies and your strength is fueling mine. I love that it's 'how many times you get up' that counts - so positive - and 'square one is better than no square at all'
Love to you all in this thread - you are all helping to clear my clouds away x
Community Leaderbobinmaine
bobinmaine
I remember the last excuse I had used to take a drink was 3 years ago, when my wife cheated on me. I was sober for the previous 4 years. That slip taught me a valuable lesson. That no matter how difficult life gets, it will never be hard enough to make me take a drink ever again. I can never allow my ego to get the best of me and I use Prayer and Meditation daily, to keep that little devil under control.

Letting go of all my negative emotions were important in keeping the communication link open between myself and my Higher Power.

God Bless!
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