Yes, most newly sober alcoholics experience some form of it. It's horrible feelings of loss and isolation, that are so bad....There just isn't any pill available that could bring me any relief...

These were generated by guilt that I held on to over the years and the guilt was caused by me being too hard on myself, I would try to medicate it with drugs or alcohol but when I got sober, for good....I couldn't do that anymore and eventually those feelings I had denied, finally came to the surface after I buried them for so many years.

The only way I got rid of it was to just forgive myself, It surprised me that that was all it took! The bad feelings went away and I stopped having nightmares.

It sounds like you had a rough time but keep in mind, the dark nights don't last forever.

Hope that helps.

God Bless

Those moments make room for a breakthrough. Keep going!

Yes, It;s a terrible feeling and wouldn't even want to wish it on my worst enemy. It's like a matter of life and death, and you have to choose one.

Do I have to do it everyday to search for the answers within. Everyday I am getting an answer and through that I also have intense headaches and I feel like maybe I need a break. I don't know what to do since I am new on this inner journey.

I found this happens pretty regularly around this time of year. The winter is over and summer is coming and my mind plays tricks that it’s Groundhog Day. I’m not getting in trouble and causing drama and deep down I want some trouble and pain...

What I do is to try to expand my friends network by reaching out my hand to someone else.

Self esteem is the root of this feeling of hopelessness.

Do a good act today... hold the door open for someone at the grocery, complement somebody. Get out of yourself. A good deed makes you feel appreciated

The alcoholism was a result of many negative choices and behaviors , change you and you will get better. I promise

1is2many

Drink more water, less sugar and love yourself

I have felt that same feeling of life or death.

Action action action

It’s like I’m in a boxing ring with Mike Tyson,

GOtTA KEEP MOVING!

Maybe the best thing to do first is talk to your doctor before you do anything else.... The severe headaches concern me.

God Bless

Where I am from, mental health is not taken serious and we don't have medical insurance. And you must have a private doctor to consult which will you an arm and a leg, otherwise you go to state hospital and they laugh in your face and chase you away. So to some of us , we rely heavily on so much research and online support groups.

I will say that aa helped me to sort thru my wreckage and rebuild

The best medicine is going to a support group, finding a mentor and going thru the steps but here is what the outline is for getting to a better place

- admit that alcohol was not the solution
- decide to take action to change self so alcohol is not needed

- define the traits ( character defects ) that we have ( my main CD were fear, guilt, and envy), until this point in my life I never knew WHAT the problem was!!!
- ask for some help from a higher power ( god , oden, the universe , choose one ) to take these defects and remove them
- find anybody that we hurt along the way and say we are sorry to have caused hurt
- continue to identify any character defects ( envy, hate , greed ) and seek to remove them from myself
- help others

Live a good life
1is2many

you will have good days and bad days, eventually it all starts to even out. I had headaches also, I started taking vitamin b and multivitamins to get some good stuff back in my body.
Look at other options such as relaxation music, going for regular walks, treating yourself with kindness.
and agree with Bob, if the headaches continue, see your doctor, as there could be something bigger going on that may need medical attention.
There is a grief associated with giving up alcohol, and the guilt and shame when you remember all the things you have done through drinking, people you have hurt, the emotions intensify, but you get through it one day at a time.
Eventually, life just goes on and a different world opens up, just keep pushing through and keep talking about it here, I promise, it does get so much better & you will find the person you were before alcohol took over.

The headaches have subsided and all I feel now is just numb. I feel like I am a zombie just walking through life without any purpose. I don't know what to do or even feel anymore.

Hello, I hope you are feeling better. I want to share this AA Group, Agnes Water 1770 Recovery. They run 24/7 and from what I saw when I joined them a few times, they allow the people to talk for as LONG as they want. As we know, it is good to be able to talk.

I feel spiritually numb and apathetic. I was into deep meditation and thought I over did it and just don't want to meditate anymore for a while. Although I feel like my whole life is just passing me by. I got myself multi-vitamins all sorts, will see if they can help. I take walks but still feel empty and walks used to refresh me. I don't know whether I am going into a state of depression or I just need more silence.

Yes I can relate to where you are. Highly suggest a open group meeting of aa. Even if you have to drive to the next city over to remain anonymous the value of people is super important in life. People who understand are ready to help you feel normal again.

Beware of isolation because that leads back in the bottle

Do you have some close friends you can talk, laugh, cry etc.

We are social creatures and sometimes without the booze have a feeling of fear to relate and interact. Life is out there waiting, You gotta go get it