Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
I was sober for a little over a year...or 15 months...I drank tonight with my sister...she is telling me not to say anything to those in AA....I can see her point of view...and I know you are all going to highly object, lol...BUT I am considering, do I really want all the drama. do I even want AA, the only thing that sucks is not having a support group...
I am drinking right now, not drunk, but whatever....not I will not drink tomorrow, I am a binge drinkker, and not an everyday one...I have never been addicted to drugs...yes, I feel different and dont know how to stop that....always have...I never had the "spiritual awakening" though I tried very hard to pretend along with everyone else...I worked the step TWICE! Once with my sponsor, another with a step study...
The only thing I feel really guilty about posting this is, the new comer...there is tons of hope in AA, you can turn your life around, and the people are amazing, but I personally hung with older women and never conected with those of my age, and mainly because of the drug thing....I could not relate to that and it sucked, maybe I should do some hard drugs...lol...oh wait, I dont like them, I have tried and I anxiety stops me...
Well, not sure why the hell I am posting but whatever....
To tell or not to tell, and I know what everyone will say so that is a pointless question! lol
I am ok, I am still going to be off work tomorrow and carry on with my life the next day :)
I am drinking right now, not drunk, but whatever....not I will not drink tomorrow, I am a binge drinkker, and not an everyday one...I have never been addicted to drugs...yes, I feel different and dont know how to stop that....always have...I never had the "spiritual awakening" though I tried very hard to pretend along with everyone else...I worked the step TWICE! Once with my sponsor, another with a step study...
The only thing I feel really guilty about posting this is, the new comer...there is tons of hope in AA, you can turn your life around, and the people are amazing, but I personally hung with older women and never conected with those of my age, and mainly because of the drug thing....I could not relate to that and it sucked, maybe I should do some hard drugs...lol...oh wait, I dont like them, I have tried and I anxiety stops me...
Well, not sure why the hell I am posting but whatever....
To tell or not to tell, and I know what everyone will say so that is a pointless question! lol
I am ok, I am still going to be off work tomorrow and carry on with my life the next day :)
Personally I don't want to go there. I'm on a vacation at the moment, lots of "fun" reasons to drink, but, I'm an alcoholic. Drinking never ends well for me, I can afford to reminisc about it, I need to move away from it and into recovery.
Oh and for what it's worth, people who go back to AA and raise their hand after relapse have helped me, and countless others stay sober at least that day. And I know lots of folks who relapsed many times and now have 10++ years of sobriety. And "bored" isn't how I'd describe them!
You can recover, or drink. It's up to you.
I wish you peace in your decision.
Please take note of something LivinLife posted:
>Have you ever had a lost decade or two? I have......time slips away, and if you spend your 30's struggling with alcoholism, you'll be surprised at how fast you hit your 40's and wonder where the time went.
I'm not a person to dwell on regret but if there's one thing I do regret it's not getting sober earlier on in life. I hate the fact that at age 43 I finally pulled it together and got sober.
What a waste. There were so many opportunities, so many great relationships trashed by my love affair with alcohol. I wish I could have all that time back.
You're still young enough to live your life in a way as not to end up with this kind of regret.
As for being bored - I can appreciate your stuation. Because alcohol is so tightly associated with everything fun and cool who wants to give it up?
Before I quit, I was spending my weekends with friends in a local band, a popular group, and it was a lot of fun. Dancing, meeting new people, just letting loose.
Now, I'm even closer to my friends, having admitted I had a problem with alcohol, they respect that. No one "expects" a drink in my hand to fit in.
The fun I have these days is better - I'm not going to wake up in the morning regretting it.
It's a hard transition from active alcoholic to sobriety. The social pressures to drink are immense. But if we stick to sobriety and surround ouselves with those who accept our sobriety we'll be ok.
Good luck and Happy Holidays to you, Ashley!
The thing about the steps is that they are not something we do once or even twice - they are something that we commit to using forever. We have to keep going with the principles long after we do the steps for the first or second run through. I didnt have what i would class as a spiritual awakening until I had been sober a few years. I just kept plugging away with putting the action in and being grateful when the desire to drink left me. It was a while before I actually felt connected to a higher power and had any concept of what that power was. What I came to appreciate was that when I was doing the action, the power was effective in my life long before I really realised it. It all took patience, not something easy for anyone never mind an alcoholic.
If there are other things you think will work for you then try them - no one has to go to AA. But if you do go back to AA then i would suggest that you tell the truth. Everything that AA is about rests on honesty so it is definitely going to be hard for it to work for you if you try and base it all on a lie IMO.