Peachy, I could not stay sober forever. That was too long a time. But I could stay sober for a 24 hr period. During that 24 hrs, there were times that I just put the drink off for 1 or 2 hrs.

Please rethink your current strategy. You've already proven you can't stay sober on your own. You really don't have to drink if you don't want to. No one can get you drunk, YOU do that. When you really decide you want to stop, maybe your attitude about AA will change. Until then, I hope you don't kill yourself or someone else behind the wheel. The breathalyzer won't be effective as long as there are people who have friends who will blow for them. Best of Luck.

even though it appears that maybe you should've i don't think you've hit your rock bottom yet and until you do - you won't want to stop. The interlock devices, don't stop you from drinking, they only stop you from drinking and driving and more specifically the car which it is on.

Hopefully your rock bottom isn't too much further down there -

Peace

"Can't" usually means "I Won't"

Hey, Peachy.
"Wish in one hand, crap in the other and see which one fills up first."

The one idea that helped get me sober was... that all of my previous ideas had only gotten me drunk: Not going to AA - got me drunk. Not drinking before noon- got me drunk, before noon.
I didn't want to go to AA because it seemed extremely UNCOMFORTABLE. "That's not for me!"
But I discovered that if I was comfortable with something, it's because it was the same crap I had been doing- and i knew what those results would be! If I was uncomfortable with something, it was because I didn't know what the results would be... so I might as well try it because maybe the results would be better. And they have been.

There is a principle which is a bar against all information, which is proof against all arguments and which cannot fail to keep a man in everlasting ignorancethat principle is contempt prior to investigation.

Herbert Spencer

YOu can stop when you get sick of it. Anybody can if they do certain things. Goodluck to you. AS for someone like me dealing with liver disease everyday, you may want to consider not drinking cause it isn't good dealing with liver disease. Nobody can do anything for you until you want to stop. it's the disease telling you you can't stop but you can anybody can.

You can't? you can't?.... You can't if you keep telling yourself you can't. What the mind expects Peachy, it will find. Try the opposite, I CAN!!!. Hey, I used to think I was the only one in the whole world whose life had turned to custard, but I reached a stage I truly wanted out, and AA was my lifeline. If you want to stop, you need to do absolutely everything necessary, and that means keep an open mind to whatever help is out there. You've been around here for a while now Peachy, what action have you taken? What action are you going to take?

Thanks coogee mum , actually thanks everyone. I think i have drank for so long, l dont know what to do. I come home from work. l drink. It seems to be the only time i dont drink to excess, is when l am in controlled conditions. meaning out to dinner with friends, or with my partner.

Then when responsible drinking is impossed on me , l go along with the flow, but those cravings eeeeek!!!!

Its like l can do it when lm in the company of others, but when alone. I cant trust myself, One drink is to much, and One thousand is not enough

OMG l just sat here and read in depth all of your opinions. Thank youeveryone. Some opinons harsh, and i understand that.

I feel like such a loser, l feel that l should not have said that no-one understands me.

Someone please tell me what happens at an AA meeting, what goes on

i have drank everyday since i have been 15, l am now 49. I dont know what it would feel like to not drink, such a habit

, please dont be harsh on me. Im scared l will die from liver disease, I was born into a family of alcoholics (on my fathers side) they are all dead. I never met any of them. My father l did not grow up with.

WTF have i inherited some alcoholic shit gene

You can stop at anytime. You just may need some extra help doing It. I would consider looking into a rehab detox hospital. It's a safe and very structured environment. You will also receive counseling which will help you to expose "the level so deep tht no-one understands" thoughts you mentioned. Get yourself better soon before it gets worse. Peace & ease

At AA you'll meet lots of people who also walked thro the door and said they couldn't stop drinking. For gods sake dont go in and tell them they dont understand you or they'll wet themselves laughing.

You'll hopefully hear what alcoholism is and what it is not. People will recount their life experiences and how they recovered. At the end of the meeting if someone is available and preferably of the same sex then ask them to sponsor you and show you what the AA program of recovery is all about.

Either way if your desperate enough you'll do everything and anything to get sober, lets face it you did anything and everything to get drunk! Good luck and if you need any advice there are lots of people on here who can give it to you.

you may need medical detox peach. talk with your doc

No one is being harsh on you, because we've all been where you our. Our stories differ a bit, but the alcohol still took over our lives. It's hard to think about quitting because alcohol has become your best friend, but it's also killing you.

I think dontread has a good idea- go for a medical detox.You begin to see things differently when you're sober though- trust me on that.

Peachy-I felt the same way and I was terrified and didn't know what to do. I had told no one! The first person I told was a nurse on an "ask a nurse" line. She told me that I need a medical detox and I told her there's no way in hell I could do that because then everyone would know, I couldn't miss work etc.

2 weeks later, I decided I didn't care who knew! I knew 2 things, 1-that I had to detox because I was tired of being sick all the time and 2-I did NOT WANT TO DIE!

The hardest phone call I've ever made in my life was to my sister at midnight to ask her to take me to the ER, when she asked "why?" I told her and her response was "but honey, I thought you said you hadn't been drinking this weekend?" and I could think of no other answer except the truth "I lied".

She picked me up and drove me, I checked into a detox facility right after the ER got some IV fluids in me.

You CAN do it when you've had enough and nothing else matters to you except your life. Good luck to you...

I rang a womens group of alcoholics (Women for Sobriety) they said if l attempted to stop drinking by myself, l might have some sort of epelictic fit. Is that true?

What do they do in a medical detox, can anyone tell me.

Thanks you are all very helpful