I'm completely burnt out on AA. I want to quit and I'm scared to bring it up to my sponsor. I've gone to more meetings, less meetings, new meetings, different meetings and I just completely dread it now. I really enjoyed going to meetings for a long time but lately I don't feel like I'm benefiting from it. I skipped my meeting last Monday and went rollerblading instead. I felt so much better doing something like that! Then I figured I better go to this Monday's meeting and the two people I talked to seemed really concerned about why I missed Monday. I don't feel like I can be honest in AA about AA or what I'm dealing with because last time I brought up that I was questioning things the same dude who interrogated me today about missing last week, went off for about 15 minutes about what's wrong with my thoughts about AA and not that maybe the program just isn't working. It's helped get me sober I'll give it that, but it's not helping me stay sober. It's putting added stress on my life and I'm fine being sober just going to the gym, eating healthy, and seeing my therapist. I feel like I'm only going to meetings to please other people or to avoid a lecture and then when I'm there I don't feel like I can be honest about what I want to say, I feel like to not rock the boat I have to spit the same language everyone else does about keeping things small, the promises are coming true, and how happy I am being sober. I'm completely happy being sober thats the truth, and I never want to go back to where I came from. I have constant reminders of how good things are and how bad things were and I don't want to keep looking back dwelling on the fact I'm an alcoholic. It's good to remember but at some point you gotta just move on and I want to move on and live life without alcohol not spin in purgatory about how my life used to be.