That is vicious. Find your way to a meeting.

Your bf and family see you committing a slow suicide with the bottle and they are terrified from watching you do this. I have seen many do the same and they are no longer in this world. including my parents and the guilt I felt from my inability to stop them from the madness of alcoholism, ruined my life until I numbed my own pain with an addiction to drugs and alcohol. I nearly died and spent 3 days in the hospital but for some reason, God gave me a miracle, and I survived.

You are on a one way train that's guaranteed to crash at the end of the line and unfortunately, everyone around you sees this except you and that's the sad part.

Surely you can try a little harder and get help, if not for yourself then for your family and friends who care about you. Go to an AA meeting, talk to your doctor or call the alcohol and substance abuse center at your local hospital.

You can be a shining example for others if you take a proactive approach and get help to stay sober. Do something and if that something doesn't work then try something else. There are always alternatives.

We will keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Please keep us posted. Many can identify with you and will be helped.

God Bless

Make tommorow better than today.
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Thanks ALL! I lost focus of myself, dealing with the drama of a friend passing. She was such a sweet lady, and animal rescuer. She died of stomach cancer. She had one daughter, with 5 grands. 4 are in social services, The daughter is a heroin addict and now has my friends' phone and FB acct. She has been set up with a trust, and no immediate $. The daughter is angry and using my friends acct to vent. It is sooo ugly! Yes, I was focusing on my drinking previously, but I've faltered, and my BF is frustrated with me. I know I need to do better!

There are several people involved in your situation:
- your BF
- your deceased friend
- the grands and kids
- your family
- the heroin addict
Which one are you most similar to?

Nothing like looking in a mirror! Thanks bobinmaine and stepone!

It doesn't need to be that way even 1 day longer. You don't need to have even one more hangover, or blackout or drunken anxiety. It can all end today and you can start living a much better life starting now. Get in the middle of other alcoholics in recovery today and watch how fast things start to change. You deserve to be free and happy.

Just sit in on a meeting you will be surprised how helpful it feels I am sober now 85 days and I have AA to thank well I did it myself but the meetings gave me a direction TRY IT!!