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i posted this on here about a year ago, and every now and then i go over it, because it is such an important thing for me. It is the eulogy i wrote for my friends funeral.
Monday, July 10, 2006
absent companions
One of my shipmates committed suicide this Saturday. He strangled himself in the middle of the night. He is Willy Hanson. He was a good kid, who just couldn't get things right. He was an alcoholic and a former drug addict. He joined the Navy to get out of his environment and hopefully to make something good out of himself.
He was caught underage drinking last November while going to BESS(Basic Enlisted Submarine School). He went into Subscol restriction in January 2006, and was given a choice on whether he wanted to stay in the Navy, or to pack his bags and go home. He chose to stay in. He knew that he didn't have anything that could be as good an opportunity as the Navy, and he knew that he messed up.
The thing is though that he was an alcoholic. After fighting to stay in the navy, he was presented an opportunity to get high while in restriction. He was caught, and his Navy career was over at that point. There was no one else to blame for this, but himself... and he could not deal with that fact. He went UA before having to go back to Captain's Mast to where it would become official that he was getting kicked out. He completely relapsed.
Hanson came back to face the things that he had done after going on a month-long vacation. The Inevitable happened. He was put back on restriction, and was to be given an other than honorable discharge.
He got sober again while in restriction, and again realized how much he messed up. He decided to fight the discharge, and believed that he could be a beneficial part of this man's Navy. He was fighting it and doing well too. His girl was pregnant and he was going to try to do right by his future child.
Then he got out of restriction. He found out that his girl had cheated on him while he was in restriction. And he was now of legal age to drink.
He got drunk again and again and again. He could not stay sober. He was even drinking when he should have been at work. He would have had a hard time dealing with his problems sober... he was incapable of doing it while drunk.
his name was Willy Huang Hanson, and he took his life late in the night when by himself in his barracks room on July 8 2006. His roommate found him with the cord still around his neck early Sunday morning.
He was a friend, and he couldn't stay sober. I will miss him, because he was at his heart a good person.
Willy, I wish you had taken me up on the offer to go back to AA, because you might still be here, and I wouldn't be crying .
Monday, July 10, 2006
absent companions
One of my shipmates committed suicide this Saturday. He strangled himself in the middle of the night. He is Willy Hanson. He was a good kid, who just couldn't get things right. He was an alcoholic and a former drug addict. He joined the Navy to get out of his environment and hopefully to make something good out of himself.
He was caught underage drinking last November while going to BESS(Basic Enlisted Submarine School). He went into Subscol restriction in January 2006, and was given a choice on whether he wanted to stay in the Navy, or to pack his bags and go home. He chose to stay in. He knew that he didn't have anything that could be as good an opportunity as the Navy, and he knew that he messed up.
The thing is though that he was an alcoholic. After fighting to stay in the navy, he was presented an opportunity to get high while in restriction. He was caught, and his Navy career was over at that point. There was no one else to blame for this, but himself... and he could not deal with that fact. He went UA before having to go back to Captain's Mast to where it would become official that he was getting kicked out. He completely relapsed.
Hanson came back to face the things that he had done after going on a month-long vacation. The Inevitable happened. He was put back on restriction, and was to be given an other than honorable discharge.
He got sober again while in restriction, and again realized how much he messed up. He decided to fight the discharge, and believed that he could be a beneficial part of this man's Navy. He was fighting it and doing well too. His girl was pregnant and he was going to try to do right by his future child.
Then he got out of restriction. He found out that his girl had cheated on him while he was in restriction. And he was now of legal age to drink.
He got drunk again and again and again. He could not stay sober. He was even drinking when he should have been at work. He would have had a hard time dealing with his problems sober... he was incapable of doing it while drunk.
his name was Willy Huang Hanson, and he took his life late in the night when by himself in his barracks room on July 8 2006. His roommate found him with the cord still around his neck early Sunday morning.
He was a friend, and he couldn't stay sober. I will miss him, because he was at his heart a good person.
Willy, I wish you had taken me up on the offer to go back to AA, because you might still be here, and I wouldn't be crying .
deleted_user
Honey, there are SO many I WISH, right down to my cat. The tough (or easy) part is just letting it go,
deleted_user
My condolences for your loss. I have had a few that I have lost along the way and in a strange way, their loss helps me stay sober. I pray that your friend's loss serves such a purpose for you.
deleted_user
i'm sure you read my thread "well, she's done it". the funeral is tomorrow. i cannot begin to tell you the sheer magnitude of funerals i've been to this year alone. btw, in past years, my own father, my own brother, would be included.
jimmysquirrel
Well, i will carry his name... and his cover(military hat) with me to my grave. And yes, his death is part of the reason i made it. He committed suicide when i was 4 months sober, and it propelled me to work the steps a lot more quickly than i would have.
deleted_user
That is the hardest...knowing that there was hope but feeling that all hope is lost....my prayers and heart go out to you! And to him!
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