Alex, you are amazing. It's so hard and you just keep trying! Have you gone to meetings before? I know for me, hearing other people say the same things I had been through was helpful. Don't give up. You can do it.

You have at least acknowledged this problem. I too am an alcoholic and started before I was 21. I'm only 2 years sober now after getting pregnant with a complete stranger in my life. It has been very tough but I found the courage to change my ways and focus on other things in my life. The money I have saved by quitting is a true motivation!

Never have i gome to a meeting actually thinking about going. Few people wanna take. Seeing that i actually wanna help myself

I had relapsed hundreds of times! It was then that I knew I needed help. I went through the emergency room at the hospital and was placed in the detox section. From their, I went through an outpatient treatment program lasting 3 weeks. After that, my counselor referred me to 3 months of counseling. It was discovered I had some underlying problems that were triggering my addiction so I was treated for those and it helped alot. Throughout all the treatment I had, regular attendance at AA meetings were a requirement. That was 9 years ago. Today I have a great life, a sober life and I have never been happier!

If you are serious about recovery, the best place to start is with your doctor who can discuss treatment options with you. Or, you can walk into any AA meeting and try those. They were a huge help for me.
You can google meetings in your area.

God Bless

I've been there. My problem with alcohol consumed my life. I couldn't do it in my own strength. I needed GOD's help. I got sick and tired of being sick and tired. I realized that alcohol was a depressant. I felt depressed continually. I prayed and asked GOD to please deliver me from the grip of alcohol. He did. It's been well over 10 years now. You can do it! Just know and believe that you can do better. I'm rooting for you!

What you do is make a decision to get sober then you start a journey that will take you to a happier, healthier and fulfilled life.
You've done the hard part by admitting you're alcoholic now what you need to do to ensure complete success is find a good stable support system. Yes your family and friends will help but you need to extend your support network wider than just people you know. A non judgemental programme and/or counselling. What programme you decide upon is up to you - there are many available. Don't give up though, if the first programme you choose isn't for you then try the next.
You also need to educate yourself about the affects of alcohol to both body and mind and give some thought to what makes you pick up the bottle - you can discuss this with your doctor and take advice from them.
Good luck x

Hi, I just joined and am struggling myself. I had 9 years of sobriety on my first try. However, I started drinking again (lightly) 3 years ago. I'm finding myself sinking lower and lower. I thought I had this thing under control. Nope. Never will. I'm looking for renewed sobriety which is why I joined just a while ago. The best feeling I ever had was throwing this beast off of me. I know you can do it. I dealt with some very hard things the first time. This time isn't so easy. I can name some reasons for that (some of the hardest things I've come across in life). I may find my comfort here in naming those things eventually. Right now, I'm looking at AA groups to help me. While I didn't venture through the steps before, it did really help me. Are you seeking outside help with what I have found to be great help. I don't know you, but you're on the right track, knowing you have an issue for which you want help. I'm here because I have limited opportunity for support. I'm very rural so meeting opportunities are limited, and I hope I and you can found some support here.

CountryMouse have you considered searching for online programmes? I know that they may not be AA endorsed but they do follow the principles laid out in the 12 steps and 12 traditions of AA. Remember such sites are not provided as an alternative to attending a real meeting but they may offer you some support.

Also online Cognitive Behaviour Therapy courses as contingency management may help - just throwing ideas out there.

Hi, judgefitness, I have found one AA meeting nearby, but it is one night a week. I didn't realize there are programs that i can work online. I'll check it out. I have to do something.

Hey! I hope you can get over it, Dont let this ruin your life. Alcohol sucks