Merry Christmas everyone!
This is my 7th month of being alcohol free! And I'm glad to have survived the last family gathering (thanksgiving) without a single drop of alcohol. When I saw the family drinking, I saw how obnoxious I may have looked through the eyes of an outsider. Seeing it as an outsider made me feel sick to my stomach.
We alcoholics have superhuman will power. After a convincing that my life would never equate to its full potential if I alone was the source of the will it took to power it through, I saw a need for rest, or atleast, a period to contemplate wrong doings and ask if there was another way. That other way turned out to be third step work, where I turn it COMPLETELY over to a God that wants to be...
Since I was young I had a love for alcohol like no one else. I drink every night till I past out, my liver is dying I am dying. Alcohol is so good SO Good God what happened to me???