Passed a liquor store and did NOT stop, 1 big step

Seems like there is a liquor store on every corner

You're doing great. If you don't want to drink, you won't. It's that simple. No matter how many liquor stores you pass or how much stress, etc, your'e under.

I could have done what you're doing for a while but I would have caved in to the vodka eventually. I made the best decision I ever made and drove to a local AA meeting and went in on my own, scared to death and found the warmest, most welcoming, wise, non-judgmental people ever.

That decision was also the best one I ever made in THEIR lives too.

"THEIR lives" meaning my kids.

I believe what your grandson said, "If you just get it out of your head, it will go away." Kids are brilliant. Same as animals. So much smarter than we give them credit.

But if you're like me, an alcoholic, getting it out of my head seems impossible.

I know what you mean about liking to drink. I do also. I have just decided that I JUST LIKE TO DRINK. Since I'm not causing any major problems anymore for anyone; no jails, no institutions, no family crises, I guess it makes it easier for me to just like to drink.

But I know I am causing major damage to myself. I also know that I just need to decide if I'm in or out - meaning, do I want to stop or keep on drinking until it kills me.

I'm working on it and your posts have helped a lot. Realizing I'm never alone in this battle is so, so helpful.

Pj54 told me to keep posting, so that's what I'm going to do. It's helped today. One day at a time. ...

Made it the first day. ...

Yay! You can do it :)

I found out last night that my daughter is back with her abusive boyfriend. I am not blaming her for my drinking by any means, but she sure does make it difficult to not drink. ..starting day 2.

WOW, I'M really grumpy today. Everybody at work keeps asking me what's wrong ?

Not unusual smahon. When I sobered up, all the feelings I'd numbed with my drinking came to me full force. One minute I'd say "Good morning" and the next trying to bust my cookie jar. They will level out.

PJ54 made a good suggestion for you to post every day. Try to stay away from the blame game. Your daughter didn't get you drunk. Your right arm did. Hang in there. Do you have a plan for staying sober? If you really start to come unhinged, you might want to reconsider AA or another program. It's a beautiful day to be sober. Enjoy it!

Hi, and so glad you are here posting. Do keep posting. Keep reading, keep sharing. Its all GOOD. And you help others in the process which is a noble thing to do.
As for grumpy....yes, early sobriety for me was totally up and down. i was all over the place. The most important thing though is I didnt drink.
Just remember that. its job one. Everything else, including being socially acceptable...is secondary:-)

I really do enjoy all the feedback, I find myself checking I constantly. The words of wisdom are really inspiring me to stay sober. Thanks guys

Hey, smahon02, helping me also. Like PJ said, keep posting. One just never knows how much they are helping someone else.

I have found that reading really helps keep your mind off of things, and takes you to another place and time.