Geez...THANK YOU sweet friends so much. Funny I check into DS daily...except yesterday...Thanks Anna for thinking of me and letting me know. I spend most of yesterday crying...sober but crying..weird. Just when you think things are going along great you have a day where it is just tough.

I had two difficult nights Thurs and Friday when I came home really wanted to drink ...a lot of back and neck pain and alcohol had always been the drug of choice (legal and I didn't need a Dr's Rx). I went to my meeting whinning and crying and it was pointed out to me that this time of year its pretty common to mourn losses and I guess on some level I was mourning the loss of alcohol. So many "fun" drinks...baily's, kalua etc. I did get over it, went out and bought that miracle drug advil, so less aches and pains and working on acceptance. Its great to come here and see you guys and get my hugs and pats!!!THANK YOU ALL