Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Starting Over

LostGirl99
LostGirl99
So I made it almost a monththen somehow cavedthe monsters in my head got me. So I am back on day 1. The upside is I know I can do it nowthat was the longest I had ever goneI just need to be careful not to let my guard down and the obsession win.
LostGirl99
LostGirl99
I have many underlying issues that lead me to reach for the bottle, most notable is anxiety, OCD and insomnia. I know why it is attractive to me, I also know why I need to be sober.

I am headed back into therapy to address my drinking issues, and work with my anxiety (to put some better tools in the toolbox) -

I unfortunately cannot do AA, it is not within my personality, I went to a couple of meetings a couple of years ago (and I know all meetings are different) but I didn't seem to get much out of itif anything they made we want to drink, they seemed stressful to me and I don't do the "higher power" bit. I know they work for many many people and that is great! I am figuring it out slowlyI will win. Thanks everyone for your wonderful thoughts and support.
weinere46
weinere46
I wish I could claim that once I decided to stop that was it but that would be pure bullshit!!! It took me almost forty years to get completely sober and every time I caved I let guilt drag me down the wrong path over and over again.
Your right, now that you know you can do it use this opportunity not for guilt but to re-commit to what you are trying to accomplish! Good luck and God bless. Eric
deleted_user
deleted_user
The obsession will continue to win unless you take action that will remove it for good and you are not doing that at this moment. I hate that people say that alcoholism is an illness of relapse and make out like it is ok. It is NOT - the next time you drink it could kill you, or worse, it could just take you out of any desire to quit. I have seen it happen many times. You need to make your mind up about how you intend to stay sober because your determination and willpower are not working. Don't become a statistic!

I am not trying to hurt you with this post I just worry that relapsing will become a way of life .... or death.

Feel free to pm me if I can help at all

Lyn
PebbleBeach55
PebbleBeach55
I'm sorry to hear that after 30 days you had a relapse.I hope your next attempt brings you the results your looking for.Good luck,,, and if by chance you fall again keep getting back up till you get it right.