Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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LostGirl99 10/21/2013

Please help me. I am a closet drinker like you have never seen, it has almost ruined my marriage several times. So I told my husband I quit, but instead I just sneak drinks...yesterday I went to brunch with a friend and ended up in a black out. Luckily I did not do anything super stupid (other than drink). I have quit 1000 times...today is first day however that I am willing to put the name alcoholism on it. I may still feel the fallout of my problem...but for the first time I want to stop forever! before I have always just said "just have one" etc. I realize now I have to redefine my reality.

Downside I am trying to just quit secretly because I am so ashamed and embarrassed and guilty. That is why I joined here. I know I will need support but my husband is not the understanding sort - he does not think alcoholism is a real thing...just a matter of will power right?

For this first week I am going to post every day for accountability, please provide me with any tips or words of wisdom...just trying not to hate myself one day at time.

LostGirl99 10/21/2013

does anyone have any advice?

fwd1021 10/21/2013

No real advice because I'm in the same boat. Just keep an eye on each other and learn from the people that have been through it.

LostGirl99 10/21/2013

okay fwd1021 - check in with me tomorrow.

Dadslasthope 10/21/2013

There are some live online chatrooms where you can get immediate support if you feel a moment of weakness coming on.The most important thing is to learn how to beat the urge for that next drink when it comes.
http://www.aaonline.net/chatguests.php

http://www.e-aa.org/

gjm 10/21/2013

Best advice I can give ya is get educated on the illness, pick some type of support group and get busy.

One thing for sure your not alone and there is a solution but I have to say you have to be done before things really change.

stickywick 10/21/2013

Welcome. Glad you are here.
For me relief and freedom came in acceptance.
Black out drinking == alcoholism in my opinion. But you may have a different "bar" and as long as you keep that bar between you and a solution, is probably as long as you will keep relapsing.
Here was an interesting story I heard on NPR the other day. The eating disorder part didnt resonate with me so much as the admiting we are alcoholic piece.

http://www.npr.org/2013/10/20/236950670/comedian-faces-his-addictions-to-food-and-alcohol

deleted_user 10/21/2013

Blackout drinking is usually considered aberrant behavior. That was my MO. By the grace of God and AA I don't have to do that any more. Like gjm says, get educated on the disease and surround yourself with a F2F support group..
For you and your husband:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alcoholism
http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/alcoholism/DS00340
http://www.aa.org/?Media=PlayFlash

There are many ways to stop drinking. But there is more to quitting drinking than just quitting drinking...

Hugs,
Dennis

LostGirl99 10/21/2013

Thanks DennyGene - the resources are great!

gr8ful2b 10/21/2013

I knew what the disease was having grown up with alcoholics. I needed to hit a bottom sufficient for me to become willing to do anything to stop.

I could not have sobered up on the sly. I needed other sober people to tell me how they sobered up. Good luck on your first day. It could be the beginning of the rest of your life. Hugs, Dianna

LostGirl99 10/21/2013

Thanks Dianna, I am feeling confident. That this time is different, since I have some people to talk to. I am also going set up an appt with a psychologist to address my underlying issues.

I know change is hard, really hard. But I think I am ready.

newlife4mee 10/21/2013

day 1 here also...same boat as you...tried 1 million times to quit but to just go back after justifying. went to AA several times but never found a sponser. I was very embarrassed about going...thinking someone would see me who I knew. Of course no one knows how often or how much I drink...not even my husband.
We Can Do This

LostGirl99 10/21/2013

Okay - I just caught my OCD brain trying to rationalize a drink - I think the first couple of days will be the hardest - I now welcome the "flood" of support I know you guys will give...what else to think about - seriously....I have surgery tomorrow and I am focused on a glass of wine...

Ready...Set...Support :)

LostGirl99 10/21/2013

Thanks newlife4mee! I will be your virtual sorta sponsor, since I have yet to succeed...perhaps we will make it together...as long as I am typing I am not drinking :)

citychick2011 10/22/2013

I can relate to everything u said. Welcome, it's time to start a new chapter!!!! Hugs what is your strategy? Keep us updated....nikki

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