Hi Ashley, have you tried to pray and meditate on the right answer. Only you can really answer the question you've asked.

There could be a bunch of other reasons why you don't want your brother to know what's going on with your drinking, but really only you know and only you can answer your question with any clarity and sense to you.

Take some time, create some space, sit quietly and see what answers come to you.

Ashley, The Big Book tells us that our way of life demands rigorous honesty. Once we start keeping little things like that secret, you become someone who is not living by spiritual principles.

The other things is that if you have not had a spiritual awakening as the result of working the steps, you really cannot guarantee that you would never drink around your nephew - you are powerless remember!

Good question to ask though - come clean and accept the consequences. Get working those steps ans you will be so different you won't recognise yourself in a mirror!! LOL

PM me if I can help in any way

Lyn x

Rainbow, I never downed anyone for the things they had done...I have been really pathetic in a LOT of things I have done...I have drank with my other nieces, I have been an awful aunt...very awful to them at time, I do not claim to be better than ANYONE...I think I may of said something a long the lines of not wanting to have children and passing this disease on....I was wrong there too, and I am sorry. I am even sorrier if you got the impression that I would think that I am better than anyone....I know I am not. actually in an AA meeting I still dont feel like I belong or deserve to be there...whatever, my own issues but I do KNOW I am NOT better than anyone....most of the time I fill like a dirt compared to most here who are a lot longer sober than I am....

But I was just saying, when I got defensive that it is my brothers first and since I only baby sit for a few hours at a time I do not and would never do that to him...I guess you can not put your whole story out there and no ones knows exactly what you are saying unless you can put it into word the right way...I want to be closer to my brother, I am just afraid he will judge me and think the wrong things about me, even if I am honest with him...

Okay I am done now, I know where a lot of you all are coming form...I must be honest in everything I do....

Ashley, one thing that I discovered after being sober for a bit, is that I was the only one thatThought I was able to hide my drinking.
Alot of folks new the truth about me, evenj though I thought I did such a good job iding it.

The truth always has a way of coming out. Better that it is from you than someone else.

Ash, by being dishonest with your brother, you'll just be pushing him away. He can't read your mind nor you his, and at the moment your probably just presenting a false image to him. Your right, we don't know the full story, just like your brother dosn't. Wouldn't it be great to have his support in your corner of the ring?

And as far as being better than anyone! Your no worse either girl. We are all equally worthy of being here and existing in this world. So don't think for a minute your a piece of dirt (slap). Your NOT. We're not bad people, we've just made some bad mistakes, but time to change yeah. CM xxx

Yeah it is time for change, every single part of me wants change...I don't want this guilt and these feeling anymore, but I know I must work through them, to make them go away, I think I need to get into counseling too....I have so many issues...but I know with hard work I can over come them too....thank you all for all of your support and I am going to tell my brother...I think I am going to stop by tomorrow and find a way to casual as possible tell him about my new sober date...and ask his advise on what I should do to get further help...
thank you all....let you know how it goes...I actually do not think he will ever think I would drink with his son...as I said its short periods of time and he sees me before and after for periods of time, there is no way possible....I;m sure he will surprise with his support

You seem to have made up your mind and I agree with your choice.

If you have second thoughts I just want to ask you this...would you want him to be honest with you if the tables were turned?