Erase those old tapes and make new thoughts of peace and celebration of you and your gifts! We all have them Ashley!

Make a list of things you like about yourself. Write it out! Don't hold it in! Go for it!

Read it and post it on your bathroom mirror if ya want.

You KNOW you have MANY wonderful qualities Ashley! Allow yourself to acknowledge them!

I call them voices, "The commitee of assholes." Listen to that stuff long enough and I can get myself in a funk in no time.
I agree with dreamingtree, put new thoughts in their place, you can do it!

I feel this post as well as the others she has made ....indicate to me that her medications need to be professional reviewed.
She has depression which sounds out-of-control at this point.

Ashley tell us more about right now...are you drinking? are you on your meds?

Please talk..verbally talk to someone..a Crsis line is perfect. They will listen

Peace

I am struggling so much....I do know how to make all the negative thoughts stop.......I want my "mom " and she is not here....I am left with only me and I hate ME...

Ok I am here so are many others....but we have to know

Are you drinking tonight and have you taken your meds. I want to know your safe.

Have you ever been hospitalised for your depression?

Breathe deeply, Ashley. Look around the room and name five things you see. Smell the smells in the room. Go the fridge and taste something. Let is roll on your tongue. Wiggle your toes into the carpet.
Repeat this mantra out loud:

"Today, right now, I am OK.
Today, right now, there is food in the fridge and a roof over my head.
Today, right now, I have friends who love and support me.
Today, right now, I am an adult, competent woman.
Today, right now, I can handle this feeling. It will not overwhelm me. I am not small today.
Today, right now, I am OK."

Now go pick up the phone and call a friend or the crisis line. You are going to be OK. We are all behind you and want you to succeed. You're not alone.

The above is what I do when I'm spiralling down and my head is full of old, unhealthy tapes. What dreamingtree suggests works, too.

*hugs* It's going to be OK.

I hope you will call your doctor and tell him/her how you're feeling. You don't have to suffer so.

I can be such a brat...i miss my mom, and for all of you who did not know...all of you, lol, I have never mentioned it, but BTW, she died of Mafan Syndrom, a site here with like 3 people, lol, .....she used to have

btw, pass it on,.......it is a scary disorder.......talk all ready for sports, not so much...http://dailystrength.org/c/Marfan-Syndrome/support-group

I'm so sorry you're mom's gone. My dad is gone, too. When I need to talk to him, I get his picture, light a candle, and turn the lights down. Then I get a pillow and hug it while I let the words and the tears flow. I feel connected, whether he's there or not. I know I sound like a nutbar, but I always feel better afterwards. lol

I was at a speaker meeting where this guy called it K-f*ck radio, it was an awesome meeting.
I also learned that you can tell those voices thanks for sharing but shut the f*ck up!

Live from the heart!

also journal, journal, journal!