Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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RockxRoll
RockxRoll
I started to deny my problem again...after a year of sobriety. I started to drink daily again...it was all I could think about. Then, last night I went out with some friends to a bar..I lost all control. Was drinking in the bathroom, sneaking shots..acting crazy. It was my friends birthday and because of me, we all got kicked out of the bar. I then threw up all over my friends bed and still feel so incredibly sick. I feel so down. How could I let myself do this again?! I am sooo embarrassed and sick with myself. I lost another friend, ruined another party..all because of my drinking.

I went to AA tonight..but I just feel so horrible about myself
I feel defeated and let down and just so...sick..
citychick2011
citychick2011
i know your plight. you just need to protect yourself first, by ignoring how you feel about it, and then convince yourself to move on.

sleep it off, drink water with vitamins(in the powder form) and move on with your daily life!

hugs, nikki
Community LeaderExJerseyGirl2
ExJerseyGirl2
You screwed up. Feeling crappy about yourself goes with the territory of getting drunk, kicked out of a bar and throwing up all over a friend's bed.

I agree that it is time for lots of water, a good night's sleep, then get up tomorrow and face a new day. Pick yourself up, and do what you need to get and stay sober for good this time, okay?
deleted_user
deleted_user
That's the thing about this disorder we got. In getting technical which I usually don't. They call these chemicals THIQ's, that just sit at the bottum of your spinal cord waiting for you to take that first drink and then its a rap, if you are one of us. The allergy is released and you are left the next day asking;why can't i just drink a couple drinks,,like the normies,,,why.
Ya gotta stay active at fighting the demons or its only a matter of time. I have did what you have done hundreds of times but you might want to add pissing on friends couches and shit like that.
It is always alcohol-ism, it never becomes alcohol-wasm.
learn from it.
deleted_user
deleted_user
All I can say is: REMEMBER THIS FEELING. I think we sometimes let our guard down and have to be reminded of the pain of alcohol and the pride of sobriety.