Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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songbird32 04/04/2014

Hi,
I have been sober from ETOH for 8 months. Been on this site for a couple years before I decided to get help. Here is my problem. I see an addiction specialist who prescribed me a stimulant which I have struggled with for years. I told him I was afraid I would get addicted. He said it's not possible with vyvanse. Well I did, every time it try to go off, I get very depressed, and sleep as much as I can.

I have a special needs son who needs me. And I despartely want to be off this crap. " I one realize I have cross addiction". I do have a sponsor and I do go to aa meetings. I have read all your stories, we all have dealt with a lot, and the information has been helpful. As with many of us , I have many grief issues that I am working through. I broke off an engagement and gave a ring back" he kept drinking" 3 days later my mom died, that same week my son was taken from the group home he lives in a was taken advantage of. My dear sister in law is terminal with Alzheimer's . She is only 55 yrs old. Sorry to go on, just needed to vent. Med makes me less depressed but needing more and more.
Thank you for listening songbird
Posted on 04/04/14, 09:21 pm

nickyj18022002 04/04/2014

Sorry you have a lot to deal with.

My experience of being sober is that life keeps happening and within that there are many challenging things, situations, losses etc. When I was drinking I didn't have any tools for dealing with it, I just tried to avoid as much as possible. So when I got sober I had to do two things, develop some tools for dealing with life and change my attitude and outlook to allow those tools to work. I got a lot of pointers by going to AA meetings but the thing that allowed me to stay sober and live life was the 12 steps.

Given that you go to AA and have a sponsor how are you getting on with the steps?

nickyj18022002 04/04/2014

Btw not making any comment on medications or suggesting that steps necessarily remove the need for them. I have to take 3 medications for mental health issues. Without the meds the AA program wouldn't work for me. Without the AA program the meds wouldn't work for me. In order to be well I need both. I have also had a lot of therapy in recovery. I believe that being sober opens the door to all sorts of help I can make use of and I believe in using everything I need to provide the whole solution that works for me.

songbird32 04/04/2014

I am on steps 7 and 8. I have not heard from my sponsor in a week. She may be in labor? I am going to a meeting in the am and I am going to share my concerns. Thank you for replying back.

stickywick 04/04/2014

Glad you are here and glad you are able to vent. That's good.
Go to a meeting. Talk to your sponsor. If she's not available talk to other women with sobriety.
I agree with nicky, life happens. I've gone through grief in sobriety and the grace (in hindsight) is I didnt want to drink.
I know nothing about Vyvanse. I'd talk to a doctor pronto. A GP and look for another referall to someone who can help you get OFF this medication if that's what you need, or modify it if that's what you need. Either way, you shouldnt look for medical help here or in AA.

nickyj18022002 04/04/2014

Well done for getting on with your steps. As you are sober longer you will get more experience of applying the principles to what is going on in your life.

Feel free to PM me anytime if you have anything you want to ask or just want to discuss anything.

songbird32 04/04/2014

Thank you! Just feels good to know that someone is willing to listen. My main goal when I am through the steps is to help other addicts, by doing lots of service work. I just need a little more work on my emotional sobriety . So I can be in a good place to help others.

:)

Zachary18 04/05/2014

Sounds like vyvanase is nasty stuff. Have you googled it to see if it is addictive or subject to abuse. If so, you might want to consider another doctor at least until you're off the stuff. If Vyvanase, is addictive that's the first question I'd ask the new doctor. And follow their instructions as how to best wean off of it. It's good you have found some tools to maintain your sobriety during this trying time in your life. Using alcohol would really complicate the whole matter and might interact negatively very negatively with vyvanase. You deserve a lot of credit.

deleted_user 04/05/2014

Hi songbird, I agree with all the above. I hear you too. Life is so tough sometimes but it always changes and there will be good things ahead for you too, it's just hard to realise that when in the middle of a series of misfortunes and crises.

A second opinion on the medical front would at least go some way to helping you decide what is best for you.

Call your sponsor, if she is unavailable for a while find someone to help you temporarily.

It sounds like you are seriously committed to your sobriety and that can only do you good.

meblonde 04/05/2014

Songbird, I am so sorry life really does suck sometimes and I can see what you are dealing with. I really can not give you a direct answer all i can say is it is OK to vent. Just stay strong and I would suggest trying to see another doc about getting you off the vyvanse. Seek help. Stay strong.

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