Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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misterjones 01/27/2009

Well I am back for my third or fourth go round here at DS. Probably shouldn't have left. I think reading other people's stories and giving and getting support really helped me in some way.

Just when I thought I had it all figured out. When I thought I saw the light and realized all I had to lose by drinking, I went and did it again. I went on a huge bender for the last 3 months. I was worse than ever.

I think my wife has resigned herself to the fact I won't change and has become rather indifferent about it. Indifference is never a good thing.

I wanted to quit drinking before my baby got old enough to see what I was doing. She is only 14 months now so there is still time but not much.

My other daughters see me drink every day. I'm so bad I haven't even tried to hide it from them.

Anyway, I'm back and am ready to quit for good. I am going to try online meetings (sorry I have done the face to face AA meetings and I just can't do them).

I was also wondering if any of you had tried Campral, if it works and if it is fairly easy to get a doctor to prescribe it?

Thanks.

deleted_user 01/27/2009

Misterjones, I am not in AA now but can say that you need to do whatever it takes to get sober-no matter how uncomfortable or difficult. If this means face to face AA meetings-then go. Personally, I do not think the computer is enough support at the beginning of sobriety for 99% of hard core alkis.

misterjones 01/27/2009

I know, everyone says "go to meetings" and I tried to do that before. I know it works for a lot of people but for me I am not good in group settings. I have a bit of social anxiety disorder and the only way I used to get over that was by drinking, of course.

That's why I am thinking maybe to try Campral to see if it works.

deleted_user 01/27/2009

I'm on Campral and I know ajdmouse (or adjmouse?) is too. We've both had success with it. It's killed my mental obsession with it but of course, I've still battled the stupid "It's been a month now so I must be normal and oooh, it's sunny out - good day for a glass of wine" thinking.

misterjones 01/27/2009

Doggirl- Did you go to your doctor and ask about Campral or was it something your doctor suggested to you?

deleted_user 01/27/2009

So how long has it been since your last drink?

misterjones 01/27/2009

About 16 hours ago.

deleted_user 01/27/2009

I don't know how long you've made it in the past, but there are several posts running on here right now by people who have quit recently. Read the posts so that you know what you are facing in advance. This is not impossible BUT you will be uncomfortable and you will be tempted to throw in the towel along the way. You might even begin to feel normal, so you'll think that you can go back to your old ways. You've got to ignore all that stuff and keep on plugging. Every day is a victory, and after a week or two you begin to feel better. Usually in increments.

I don't know how much you were drinking or how long, but that can play a role in the severity of your withdrawal. If you were drinking a lot, beware of DT's. Google it and RUN to the Doctor if you think you're having them.

You're 2/3 through day#1 - keep it up!

misterjones 01/27/2009

Thanks Jacker-

I have actually quit before a few times. I always had trouble getting past the third day because the headaches and body aches and increased heart rate and sweating were too much to take. I made it exactly two weeks the last time I quit and was feeling good but I screwed it all up and have been drinking heavily again for the past 3 months.

One day at a time though. I have to make it throught this day first.

-mj

deleted_user 01/27/2009

do what you need to do to save your life. no compromises......

CoogeeMum 01/27/2009

So the headaches, body aches and increased heart rate are too much to cope with huh? What aches do you think those 3 beautiful children will have if you stay drunk? or worse die? They don't want their daddy drunk or dead. But that's what's going to happen if you don't do EVERYTHING you can to get and stay sober.

Everything you do when you first get sober is going to be hostile and uncomfortable. That's because your best friend has been taken away. Man you want to be there for your kids? You need to get off your arse and take care of yourself SO you can take care of them. If that's rehab, AA meetings, counselling, group therapy whatever, just do it. We're here in support. I pray you will take some action for both you and your family. Coogee xxx

krm 01/27/2009

Congratulations on coming back and your wife's indifference may be a good thing. I'll bet you can prove to her that you can do it.and I'll also bet that you can do it the hard way. My own belief and only my belief is that you will not find a pill to do this for you. Alcohol has lit the fire in you and only you can put it out. You can do it, it just takes a little time. Get mad and decide that you are not going to let it control you ever again. Enough is enough. Show your wife and the world that you are no longer going to let any substance control your world.

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