violettool

so i'm new to this site.  i really need this place, the pain's just gotten to hard.  i hate life but i hate hating life, ya know?  oh well.  my depression got like, a hundred times worse after...

ok so friday i had this dance and it was AMAZING!!!!!!! that whole night i didn't feel like dying and the next day, i spent half the day happy!! i've gone down to 20 thoughts at least!

screw this fucking goal!! it'll never happen.

well instead of a minimum of 40 suicidal thoughts a day. . .my minimum is about 35 or 36 now. . . .yay. . .still cut though.

I'm just one of those people who wasn't meant to have friends or connections.  People just won't realize that I'm bad for them, that I'll hurt them somehow.  Why can't people listen when I'm trying...

I had to talk to my boyfriend today.  He thinks that he was hurt most by the situation with David.  He wants us to go back to how we used to be and that's not possible, because we've changed.  I...

my heart is torn in so many pieces that i can't fix it anymore.......my mind is disturbed so deeply by my nightly nightmares that now i'm not sure which is reality.  blood covers my windows and...

Would you care if I died today?Would you care if I ran away?Would you let me leave alone?Never return 'till I'm dust or bone?If I saw you, would you really be there?If I want to meet you, would you...

so i'm new to this site.  i really need this place, the pain's just gotten to hard.  i hate life but i hate hating life, ya know?  oh well.  my depression got like, a hundred times worse after...