jkjuhlin

2nd day, gambling free!

1 day, no gambling! =)

7 DAYS GF

Today i feel excellent...havent gambled since my last journal post! Loving every moment of it

i just blew my entire student loan...dont know what im going to do or how i will pay for tuition...as of today...i have never felt soo depressed

Today was probably the biggest slip...i could just cry..it feels like i have lost total control..and i really dont know what to do

I keep slipping!!! I cant stop at this point...in so much debt and it feels like this is my only way out..yet this is what put me in debt =(

 yesterday i felt extremely lonely...upset and just confused..i turned to my vice...BINGO..i officially hate bingo at this point..not winning..just losing, and yet i continue..today was even worse...

Feeling great today!! last night..well yesterday i watched a movie that i havent seen in ages.. ''Anne of green gables'' and then after that i watched the sequel....Btw..i really do recommend this...

Today...today has to have been one of my best days as a CG. I spoke to another CG who was more than inspiring, loving and caring. She helped me understand things by sharing with me her...

 Can't stop...want to...feels impossible...I hate it

Yesterday i gambled, however i never actually put in money..i received a bonus from a site...won...bet it all..lost it all....i feel ashamed ..not because i lost, but because that day..i wasnt strong...

Today I ask for strength that today will be my last day of gambling

7 DAYS GF

Today i feel excellent...havent gambled since my last journal post! Loving every moment of it