Yup...still sober.

Who'd have thought...ME...totally sober? I have been bar tending a lot lately, and closing down a bar and being completely sober at the end, is a trippy thing.  While everyone else is draging ass to get up and get out of there...I am running around like a mad woman, picking up empties and yelling "Suck 'um UP!! You don't have to go home, but you can't stay here". Occasionaly, I get the urge to drink one, or smoke some...but then, all I have to do is scan the bar, for the wobbling, glassey eyed one, who smells as if they just got in a fight with a skunk, and remember back to the "good old days" (well, what I CAN remember anyways) and that's enough for me not to want to go there anymore. Today, I am slightly sleep deprived, but I don't have a hangover. Today, I have more money in my wallett than I have had in some time and all my bills are payed, in advance. Today, I remember everything I did last night and have no unexplained bruises, or missing items. Today, I have no regrets for the things I did last night...even when I finally spoke up to this girl who DRIVES ME NUTS...I left her intact. Today, I am a greatfull alcoholic/pothead.