yuck day

what is going on with me today? i feel very, "not right". I don't know how to put a finger on the exact description. I just feel all over the place. Unable to focus and get things done, and in general... depressed. Today has been a day of small failures. Nothing overly significant, but still, enough small things to just nag at me and make this day a bad one. I'm not sure that i even want to go home. Just drive somewhere dark and deserted and fall asleep in the car. To top everything off... i forgot all about my therapy appointment this afternoon. Missed it by an hour. Well, more, if you count the drive time. I hate missing appointments. I just want to find a quiet place like a thousand miles from anyone, and lay down on the ground. I would just lay there all night long. quiet and still knowing that i would never have to go back.reality is a harsh light glaring in my eyes, hurting my brain. It crushes me as certain and relentlessly as the crashing waves of the ocean. My sainity slowly erodes under the onslought. I found my medicen today. I had lost it for a day and a half. I imagine that this may have something to do with my mood. All i know is that it sucks. I wanted to talk about other stuff. Plans for going forward with my "healing". It just seems like this is just how i am going to be for a while... i dont know... maybe i should just go home.