You've Got to be Kidding Me!

Come home from work today to find my apartment door wide open!!! Went inside and nothing looked to have been stolen. With my ex husbands gf working right down the road it freaks me out. Especially since as i'm going to work she's just getting out of work. So now i'm sitting inside with my doors locked and it's only 3pm. As if I needed another thing to worry about right now. Haven't been getting any letters from my boyfriend so i'm getting the idea that maybe since he's been gone he's drifted away from me. In the back of my mind I don't know whether to be relieved or hurt, i'm still wrestling with that ordeal. I'm starting to feel a little better, starting to gain some weight back which is a good thing but i'm not a skinny person. I can either be sick and skinny or overweight and healthy, just can't win. Really hoping to find a break soon. If this is how 2010 is going to be, don't wake me up until 2011.