Yet more
Not much new to report...all the same stuff, now going on the end of the second day...headaches, achiness, digestive issues (am currently just eating to have something in my stomach; I'm not interested in food), and fatigue not relieved by any amount of resting.
So yet another day with the hours drawn out by major discomfort and, of course, depression, this time, associated with the anniversary of my mother's death (that's tomorrow...I can't wait).
As I've said before, I've lost SO much time being depressed and/or physically hurting and worn-out that to do it yet one more day....in itself, is depressing. While I've been successful at not beating myself up for not getting anything done, and for not getting stressed about missing a sale or two, this is still no fun...no, sir, no effing fun at all.
I just hope that this bout is over after tomorrow, if not earlier. In fact, wouldn't it be wonderful if this is the Last Bout? OMG, I could get on with my life! I could make plans and promises, and actually carry them out! I COULD BE RELIABLE! Wow, what a thought!!
Someday.....someday......right now, I've just got to ride it out. I know that, now far off, is the shoreline that will let me walk out of this hellish swamp and onto firm, dry land....I've just got to keep on walking, even if all I can do is baby steps.
Gotta go cry some more. Hugs and kisses, my friends and sisters!
So yet another day with the hours drawn out by major discomfort and, of course, depression, this time, associated with the anniversary of my mother's death (that's tomorrow...I can't wait).
As I've said before, I've lost SO much time being depressed and/or physically hurting and worn-out that to do it yet one more day....in itself, is depressing. While I've been successful at not beating myself up for not getting anything done, and for not getting stressed about missing a sale or two, this is still no fun...no, sir, no effing fun at all.
I just hope that this bout is over after tomorrow, if not earlier. In fact, wouldn't it be wonderful if this is the Last Bout? OMG, I could get on with my life! I could make plans and promises, and actually carry them out! I COULD BE RELIABLE! Wow, what a thought!!
Someday.....someday......right now, I've just got to ride it out. I know that, now far off, is the shoreline that will let me walk out of this hellish swamp and onto firm, dry land....I've just got to keep on walking, even if all I can do is baby steps.
Gotta go cry some more. Hugs and kisses, my friends and sisters!
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