Yesterday was one of the WORST DAYS EVER

I don't quite understand how he could have thought he was justified in behaving the way he did yesterday, but I suppose it shouldn't have surprised me. It wasn't the first time he's behaved with pure cold-hearted cruelty towards me, even though I barely said two words to him. The thing is that lately it appears that I don't have to even say anything in order to be " in trouble " in his eyes. 

Everything, and anything, that's bothering him is my fault. That's what it adds up to, even though he doesn't come right out and say it to my face. He doesn't have to say it though, because his actions show me what he's thinking. I've always believed that actions speak much louder than words anyway. That principle applies especially to him. Time after time he'll be as cold-hearted as a winter storm in the Antartic - apologize after being cruel and heartless for hours, and then he thinks that everything he just did is somehow " erased ". What he doesn't realize is that I can see through his so-called " apology. It's always one that seems made with no true meaning behind it. It's as if he does it only because he knows I'm waiting on it, and not because he truly means it. 

I pray that today will be a MUCH better day than yesterday !      

It's got to be better because I can't take 2 days in a row like yesterday ! My nerves, and my heart, can't take it ! I need PEACE ! 

What can you do with someone that won't let you BREATHE without telling you that you're " doing it WRONG " ! 

One night recently I cooked frozen fries for dinner, and I made the mistake of cooking " his " longer than he likes them. 

OH MY GOD !!!! You would have thought that I had tried to poison him by how he acted about it !

I apologized for my mistake OVER AND OVER AND OVER AND OVER AGAIN ! But that wasn't good enough ! He swore that I did it ON PURPOSE ! I told him that wasn't the case ! I explained that it was a simple mistake, and AGAIN that I was VERY SORRY about it ! But STILL he told him he would NOT ACCEPT my apology ! 

He tried to MAKE ME eat his share of the fries right then, but I had to refuse. I told him that I was already full from eating my own share of it. Oh he didn't want to hear that ! That made his rage burn even worse !!!!   

He told me that he would put his share of the fries in the fridge, and that I WOULD EAT THEM the next day !.... that they would NOT be wasted because of my stupidity ! At this point you would think that his rage would be cooling down... but NO !... instead he was still banging around the apartment throwing things around, and he got dressed... storming out the door for a walk ! I was thankful for that because I couldn't stand being around him anymore at that point ! ... especially NOT when his uncontrolled rage was still determining how he acted towards me. 

It's a few days later now.... and you would think that at this point he would have apologized for his behavior that evening... but NO. I suppose that shouldn't surprise me since he rarely thinks that anything he does is wrong, no matter how " wrong " it truly is. He's always been a LOT more about blaming Others, than apologizing for his actions. It must be nice being so damn perfect ! HAHAHA !